So Right It's Wrong.. ;) Its Life

Whats In A Name..

2011-12-21T12:01:00.000+05:30

The passion for cooking keeps me going on.. It makes me feel alive.. Its time for a new blog dedicated just and just to food and the happiness it brings to my life :)

Struggling to find a name for my food blog.. Pour in your ideas :)

Calling out for help :)

You are my baby..and you'll always be..

2011-12-09T06:35:00.002+05:30

I was a daughter all this while and then in that one moment when you came into my life.. you made me realise I was a mom.. Without any doubt, you are my first baby.. and I love you so much my girl..

The first time I saw you.. you were a tiny ball of fur who could fit into my palm easily.. Time flew and you became a big girl..

I remember the first time you had a mango and how you madly fell in love with the fruit.. I remember your love for tea and how you would jump all over the house for that one drop of tea.. I remember the times when I took you out for your daily bike rides and when we played on the terrace.. I remember how you slept on me peacefully.. I remember how you followed me everywhere in the house.. I remember how you would sit in a corner all scared when I would get angry..

I remember the first time we took a flight together.. I remember how scared you were and how you wanted to cling on to me.. I remember our first time in the train together and how you were the center of attraction for everyone.. I remember how everyone made fun of me by addressing you as my daughter and how that fun became such a big truth of my life..

I remember how you fell ill and the whole family spent their days and nights looking after you.. I remember how every face lit up when you stood up and ate something after 5 long days.. I remember how everyone fell in love with your stupid acts.. I remember how you became a reason for smile for everyone in the home.. I remember how you danced when dadi sang "Banna to maaraa futaraa saa".. I remember how you snuggled with me.. I remember how you sat in dadu's lap.. I rememeber how you loved to sit in papa's arms.. I remember how mom was scared to hold you once and then came a time when she could not let go of you for a second.. I remember how that kid Shankar became your best friend and I remember how you posed for the pics Nik took of you.. I remember how you gradually made a place in Harshit's heart with the crazy things you did.. I remember how you enjoyed your car drives to Jodhpur... I remember how you jumped around the house and hid in every nook and corner of the house.. I remember how you became a second Nidhi to dad and mom.. I remember how you did your "Jay Jay" to me on the wecam everytime.. I remember how your soft skin felt against me.. I remember how you licked all over my face to show me how you loved me.. I remember how you rubbed your tiny little feet on my tshirt to grab all my attention.. I remember how much of a cleanliness freak you have been.. I remember how you played with your long ears.. I remember how you wanted to eat in the same plate I ate my food in..

I remember how much of a human you were than any of us ever were.. You brought us smiles.. You brought us joys.. You brought us happiness and you brought us laughter.. And just like that you took no time to teach us that angels need to go back to a different world.. you just went away.. in a fraction of second.. I miss you my baby.. I miss you a lot and though it doesn't make any sense to anyone.. it does to me.. You are the baby who made me a mom.. You are my girl and I am so proud of you.. Rest in peace and stay happy where ever you are my baby girl.. You mean the world to me.. and you are missed immensely.. for you were my girl.. for you were the part of me who became a daughter to mom dad.. a grand daughter to dada dadi.. a best friend to Shankar and bundle of joy to Nik and Harshit..

Love you my little doll.. and I miss you so much.. for you are my baby.. and will always be mine..

Whatever I am today.. I am because of you.. :)

2011-12-04T06:01:00.000+05:30

Whatever I am today.. I am because of you.. :)

When I was a kid, I wanted to be a driver.. then came the time when I wanted to be an inspector.. Some more time passed and I realized I wanted to be a pilot.. And by the time I realized I was still confused.. I became an engineer.. And now when I think of what I am and what I want to be.. I know, for once, what it is that I really want to be.. I want to be "You".. I want to be what you are mom.. I want to be the person that you are.. :) I want to be the daughter that you are.. I want to be the sister that you are.. I want to be the wife that you are.. I want to be the friend that you are.. I want to be the mom that you are.. I want to the "LIFE" that you are..

The softest soul who speaks the language of love and the strongest soul who shields the ones she loves :) You are the one who taught me "Love" in your own special ways :) Sometimes by holding me close to your heart and sometimes by leaving me on the ground to take that one step on my own.. Sometimes by telling me that its okay to cry and sometimes by asking me to hide the pain behind my eyes..

You are the one I have fought the most.. and you are the one I have friended the most.. You are the one who makes me the strongest.. You are the one who brings out my weakness.. You are the one I have hurt the most and you are the one I have wanted the most..

For all the foul that I have said and done.. forgive me.. and let me wish you a very very happy birthday.. I love you.. love you a lot.. Missing you and missing your touch.. missing your hugs.. missing your kisses..

Happy Birthday Maa :)

Simple Yet Not So Simple..

2011-11-18T05:11:00.000+05:30

"Pata hai.. Yahaan se bahut door.. Galat aur sahi ke paar.. Ek maidan hai.. Main wahaan milunga tujhe.."

There is something about this movie Rockstar.. still churning, twisting and turning in my head.. I know what it is.. and yet I have no words to express what it is.. I think I am gonna need time to give words to what it is, that is keeping me from saying what it is :) I'll be back.. Soon :)

Broken Wings..

2011-10-23T10:08:00.015+05:30

The pride.. The joy.. The reason.. The very existence.. becomes a question just because of that one wrong decision.. All you are left with is thoughts.. Thoughts that strangle you every passing moment.. The wish to undo what is done and can't be undone..EVER..

The slow poison.. The silence of loneliness.. The chaos of shattering dreams..

The wish to go back.. The wish to turn back time.. The wish to take back what was said.. The wish to say all that went unsaid.. The wish to live a dream.. The wish to smile.. The wish to live..

The pain.. The broken wings.. The kill..

A hope to reach an end..

My Little Ball Of Happiness :)

2011-10-13T04:17:00.001+05:30

Looks just like yesterday.. I was told, a new baby would be coming home.. The baby would be my best friend.. I hated the idea.. I simply did not want to share my mom dad's love.. The love, which was just for me.. I made sure I won't play with the new baby when he comes home.. I made sure, I would ignore him..

And then.. on 13th Oct 1986, I was told, the baby had come.. I was introduced to the baby.. Well, the baby ignored me :) He chose to sleep instead of waving his hand at me.. I wanted the baby to wake up so that I could tell him that I was THE PRINCESS.. and he was not to get the love that I deserved.. And just when I thought of doing so, he opened his tiny eyes.. looked at me.. and gave me a smile so beautiful.. my heart meleted.. and I realised.. I was in love.. for life.. for I had my life.. just in front of my eyes.. with a twinkle in his eyes.. a smile on his lips and innocence on his face.. He had his arms stretched out.. He wanted me to hug him.. And when I bent down to hug him.. he chuckled..

In a single second, he won me.. :) He made me hsi best friend :)

And today that little baby has grown up into a man.. a man I am so proud of :)

My Darling Brother.. though you've become a big man.. but to me you are still that small little angel who I love to hold in my arms and play with all day long.. :)

Wish you a very very very Happy Birthday.. :)

May you smile always and make our lives more beautiful.. :) May you be the best doctor ever and help all the poor souls with poorer teeth :D (I am first in that list :D ) May all your dreams come true and may you be the happiest man ever :) May you live hundred years and make us all more proud :)

I love you baby, my pride, my life, my reason of smiles :)

Happy Birthday !!

Yet another realization

2011-09-15T00:45:00.000+05:30

Being alone in a room and looking at your vidaai pictures can be extremely injurious to your eyes..

Happy Birthday To A Paa Who Is "The Bestest Paa And The Bestest Friend Ever"

2011-08-19T00:18:00.000+05:30

The first time I opened my eyes to see the world, I saw YOU.. I knew the world is a beautiful place and would always be.. Because I would always have your arms around me to PROTECT me.. Your eyes to look at me with all the LOVE in the world.. Your words to encourage me to be just ME and no one else.. Your smile to tell me life is BEAUTIFUL.. I would have WHOLE OF YOU in my life to make it PERFECT..

I do not remember how it felt when you held me for the first time.. When you hugged me for the first time.. When you kissed me for the first time.. But I do know how you felt when you handed me over to a new man without asking for anything but my smiles.. I do know how you smiled with tears in your eyes, promising me a lifetime of happiness with the man I chose to be with.. I do know how you miss me every moment of your life and still ask me to fly high and explore the beauty of life everyday..

I miss being away from you Paa.. Just the way I miss being in your arms.. Just the way I miss lying in your lap.. Just the way I miss holding your hand.. Just the way I miss being around you.. Just the way I miss my LIFE with you..

Hating to be away from you on your birthday for the first time in life.. Hoping this is the last time when am not with you on your birthday.. I love you Paa.. I love you a lot.. Happy Birthday :)

Happy Birthday To A Paa Who Is "The Bestest Paa And The Bestest Friend Ever"

Miss You Life..

2011-07-25T23:55:00.001+05:30

I miss being "Me"..

Lost in the world of so many transitions, I seem to have forgotten the real me..

In search of my soul.. I wander.. Hoping.. one day.. just one day.. I shall be liberated :) and I shall be "Me" again :)

Zindagi ROCKS !! :-)

2009-11-23T12:47:00.007+05:30

Unplanned Visit To Mall With Big Bro.. :-) Bro's Thumbs Up For The Dress I Liked.. :-) Buying The Dress.. :-) Yet Another Hit On The Pocket.. :-( Misplacing The Dress In The Mall.. :-( Finding It Back :-) Coming Back Home Talking About Childhood Memories.. :-) Enjoying The Most Delicious Roadside Ragda Pattice With Bro.. :-) Coming Back Home To Childhood Friends Ash And Sid.. :-) Missing Eug :-( Senseless Discussions With Them.. :-) Enjoying Sev Puri And Icecream With Them.. :-) Walking Back Home With Friends.. :-) Standing In The Middle Of The Road And Talking For An Hour.. :-) Saying Good Night Just To Continue Talking For Yet Another Half An Hour.. :-) Long Walk And A Sensible Hour Long Discussion With Sid.. :-) That Long Call To Mom Dad To Wish Them A Very Happy Anniversary.. :-) Planning A Surprise Party For Them On Phone.. :-) Being Away From Them On This Ocassion.. :-( Watching A Movie With Big Bro.. :-) Thinking Of These Beautiful Moments Of Life.. :-) All In A Span Of 8 Hours.. If This Is What Life Is.. I Can't Stop Falling In Love With It.. :-) Love You All.. My Family.. My Friends.. My Freedom :-)

2009-11-19T13:39:00.000+05:30

Its been a while.. and I seriously don't know how to start giving words to the train of thoughts running inside my head.. Its been a while.. Seems am never really at peace :) Some or the other thing keeps me up all the time.. Strangely, this chaos has become so much a part of me lately that I sometimes feel, would I ever be able to make friends with this STRANGER called "PEACE OF MIND" :)

Trying hard to come back to you my blog.. Help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... And yeah, I missed ya.... Infinity....

Ye Mumbai Hai Meri Jaan !

2009-06-19T21:28:00.010+05:30

I received this piece in a mail today and I just can't stop myself from posting this one here :) People ! This is one more reason why I love Mumbai :) Mumbai ROCKS !! People of Mumbai ROCK :) Life in Mumbai ROCKS :) I love Mumbai :) Here comes the piece I am talking about....

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Suvendu Roy of Titan Industries shares his inspirational encounter with a rickshaw driver in Mumbai Last Sunday, my wife, kid and I had to travel to Andheri from Bandra. When I waved at a passing auto rickshaw, little did I expect that this ride would be any different.

As we set off, my eyes fell on a few magazines (kept in an aircraft style pouch) behind the driver's back rest. I looked in front and there was a small TV. The driver had put on the Doordarshan channel.

My wife and I looked at each other with disbelief and amusement. In front of me was a small first-aid box with cotton, dettol and some medicines. This was enough for me to realize that I was in a special vehicle. Then I looked around again, and discovered more - there was a radio, fire extinguisher, wall clock, calendar, and pictures and symbols of all faiths - from Islam and Christianity to Buddhism, Hinduism and Sikhism.

There were also pictures of the heroes of 26/11- Kamte, Salaskar, Karkare and Unnikrishnan. I realized that not only my vehicle, but also my driver was special. I started chatting with him and the initial sense of ridicule and disbelief gradually diminished. I gathered that he had been driving an auto rickshaw for the past 8-9 years; he had lost his job when his employer's plastic company was shut down. He had two school-going children, and he drove from 8 in the morning till 10 at night. No break unless he was unwell. "Sahab, ghar mein baith ke TV dekh kar kya faida? Do paisa income karega toh future mein kaam aayega." (Sir, what's the use of simply sitting at home and watching TV? If I earn some income, then it will be useful in the future.) We realized that we had come across a man who represents Mumbai – the spirit of work, the spirit of travel and the spirit of excelling in life. I asked him whether he does anything else as I figured that he did not have too much spare time. He said that he goes to an old age home for women in Andheri once a week or whenever he has some extra income, where he donates tooth brushes, toothpastes, soap, hair oil, and other items of daily use. He pointed out to a painted message below the meter that read: "25 per cent discount on metered fare for the handicapped. Free rides for blind passengers up to Rs50". He also said that his auto was mentioned on Radio Mirchi twice by the station RJs. The Marathi press in Mumbai know about him and have written a few pieces on him and his vehicle.

My wife and I were struck with awe. The man was a HERO! A hero who deserves all our respect. I know that my son, once he grows up, will realize that we have met a genuine hero. He has put questions to me such as why should we help other people? will try to keep this incident alive in his memory. Our journey came to an end; 45 minutes of a lesson in humility, selflessness and of a hero-worshipping Mumbai - my temporary home. We disembarked, and all I could do was to pay him a tip that would hardly cover a free ride for a blind man.

I hope, one day, you too have a chance to meet Mr. Sandeep Bachhe in his auto rickshaw - MH-02-Z-8508.

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Ye Mumbai Hai Meri Jaan :)

No place in this world can be as good as Mumbai :) (Atleast for me :) )

Love ya Mumbai :)

Love your spirit :)

Love your courage :)

Love the fighter in you :)

Love the life in you :)

Love everything about you :)

Right from the crowded streets to calm and composed nights at band stand or marine lines :)

From the honest rickshawalas to helping public :) From the almost unattractive kid staying in the slum to the page 3 element staying at Nariman Point :)

From Linking Road, Fashion Street To Inorbit, Center One and Designer Stores :)

The list :) like always is endless :)

At the end of it :) all I know is... :)

Nothing can beat a life in Mumbai :)

P.S. Special thanks to you Moi for sharing this wonderful mail with me :)

Rehnaa Tu... Hai Jaisaa Tu...

2009-06-01T16:22:00.003+05:30

No Promises to be made this time about being regular... Everytime I make one... I end up breaking it and I hate myself for that...

Anyway... Life has been a roller coaster ride in these past few months... So many things have happened... Things I had not anticipated at all.. Found people who I had never even dreamt of meeting again in life... Found some people who have become an inseparable part of my life in a really short span of time... mended some broken relationships... and lost few beautiful relationships... Seems ! Its time I should start learning the ways of life... It really is highly unpredictible... Still ! I have no complains.. Each day has introduced me to a new face of life... Each day has given me a new ray of hope and each day has taken from me, one reason to smile... At the end of it... life still is beautiful and worth living, for amidst these changes.. are few contants in my life... I call them my Family, my Friends and my Freedom... These 3 F's defined me... defines me and will define me forever... These 3 F's will continue to be the constants in my life... giving me the strength to love more and live more...

I have been learning... I feel I have been a good learner so far... but sometimes I get scared... Will all these learnings change me as a person ? I am not sure if I want to change myself... People who have accepted me for who I am... have stood by me forever... They love me more for who I am today... for who I have been all these years... So do I really need to change ? These questions have been haunting me for long... I sometimes just want to clear my head of all these thoghts and run away... Run away to a land where life is perfect... and then I find myself wondering... What is PERFECTION ? Does PERFECTION really exist ? If it does... why don't I experience it at all ?

I make promises... I break them... a guilt feeling engulfs me and I find myself helpless... so weird it is... I often dream, I am drowning... despite knowing swimming really well... I just can't move at all... I feel breathless and I see myself drowning... The dream never ends.. I don't know, if at the end of it I survive or I become a part of that vast water body... Strange part is that I love water... My knowns often tell me I swim like a fish.. as if I were meant to stay in water... I myself have no control on me when I see water... I have always been in love with water... Be it the calmness of the beach or the roars of the waterfall... I just have always loved water... It seems to me, the most beautiful creation of God... Then why do I see myself fighting water... ???? Is it that I'll die fighting the ones I love ? I don't want that... I really don't want that...

I am an Aquarian.. The Water Bearer.. A Known had once said something about me, which I will never forget in life... I think he had pretty much defined me in those few words... he simply said..."Nidhi is like flowing water... Place anything in front of her... She will peacefully flow and take the same shape... She will just be what you want her to be... But try and stop her flow... and see how the calm water suddenly would roar and break all the boundaries..." I was speechless when I was told that... But when I thought peacefully... I just wondered... yes pretty true it was... pretty true it is... Nothing can stop water... You can kill fire by water.. but you can never kill water itself... When at peace... water will be your life... but when you try to forcefully stop its flow.. It can ruin everything around... A part of me relates to this analogy completely... infact a major part of me... but that left alone small part of me gets scared sometimes.. of myself... Will I end up hurting my loved ones... ?

I have no clue what am I writing and why am I writing all this... I just felt like writing thoughts that are haunting me right now.. and I came to you my blog.. you ve been abandoned by me for a long time.. you still accept me like this... why cant people in my life be the same... Why can't I be accepted for who I am... for what I am...

All I want is to be taken for who I really am... what I truly am... Good or Bad... I belong to my Family and my Friends.. I was a part of you, I am a part of you and I want to be a part of you forever and always...

And yeah... Thanks Dost ( I Hope you read it ) ! for dedicating the song to me last night :) May be you did it just like that :) but after a long time, I felt the peace I have been looking for from a very long time... :)

Here comes the song , that have rekindled in me a ray of hope :)

Rehnaa Tu.. Hai Jaisaa Tu..

Thodaa Saa Dard Tu.. Thodaa Sukoon..

Rehnaa Tu.. Hai Jaisaa Tu..

Dheemaa Dheemaa Jhonkaa.. Yaa Fir Junoon...

Thodaa Saa Resham Tu Humdum... Thodaa Saa Khurduraa..

Kabhi To Ad Jaaye.. Yaa Lad Jaaye.. Yaa Khushboo Se Bharaa...

Tujhe Badalnaa Naa Chaahu.. Ratti Bhar Bhi Sanam..

Binaa Sajaawat.. Milaawat.. Naa Jyaadaa.. Naa Hi Kum...

Tujhe Chaahu.. Jaisaa Hai Tu..

Mujhe Teri Baarish Mein... Bheeganaa Hai.. Ghul Jaanaa Hai..

Tujhe Chaahu.. Jaisaa Hai Tu..

Mujhe Teri Lapat Mein... Jalnaa Raakh Ho Jaanaa Hai..

Tu Zakhm De Agar... Malham Bhi Aakar Tu Lagaaye..

Zakhm Mein Bhi Mujhko.. Pyaar Aaye..

Dariyaa.. O Dariyaa..

Doobane De Mujhe Dariyaa..

Rehnaa Tu.. Hai Jaisaa Tu..

Thodaa Saa Dard Tu.. Thodaa Sukoon..

Rehnaa Tu.. Hai Jaisaa Tu..

Dheemaa Dheemaa Jhonkaa.. Yaa Fir Junoon...

Haath Thaam.. Chlanaa Ho To..

To Dono Ke.. Daayein Haath.. Sang Kaise..

Ek Daayaa Hogaa.. Ek Baayaa Hogaa..

Thaam Le.. Haath Ye Thaam Le..

Chalanaa Hai Sang.. Thaam Le..

Rehnaa Tu.. Hai Jaisaa Tu..

Thodaa Saa Dard Tu.. Thodaa Sukoon..

Rehnaa Tu.. Hai Jaisaa Tu..

Dheemaa Dheemaa Jhonkaa.. Yaa Fir Junoon...

Thodaa Saa Resham Tu Humdum... Thodaa Saa Khurduraa..

Kabhi To Ad Jaaye.. Yaa Lad Jaaye.. Yaa Khushboo Se Bharaa...

Tujhe Badalnaa Naa Chaahu.. Ratti Bhar Bhi Sanam..

Binaa Sajaawat.. Milaawat.. Naa Jyaadaa.. Naa Hi Kum...

Rehnaa Tu.. Hai Jaisaa Tu..

Thodaa Saa Dard Tu.. Thodaa Sukoon..

Rehnaa Tu.. Hai Jaisaa Tu..

Dheemaa Dheemaa Jhonkaa.. Yaa Fir Junoon...

Am finally... at peace... atleast... for now :)

Ek Baar Fir... Purani Raahon Per... Mai !!

2009-02-26T17:52:00.002+05:30

2 Months... Surely is a big time.... To stay away from something you love a lot.... Am back...Back to my blog... Back to a friend who listens to me and doesn't judge me at all... It feels great... To be back... Work has been keeping me too busy these days... Am hardly getting any time for myself... My day starts at 5:30 am in the morning and I am usually awake, working till 1 am... By the time I am done with my work, I am left with no energy to do anything else... but to retire to my bed...

Not to forget mentioning the love that has been showered upon me by few "frenz"... who left no stone unturned to tell me that am a workoholic and basically people like me ruin life for other in the office... by working for so many hours.... just for those wonderful frenz of mine... "Am not a workoholic... but for sure I cant walk off just like that... If am responsible for something.. I find it too difficult to run away from that work...

Anyways... Today when I woke up... Instead of going for my daily jog... I just felt this undying desire to post something on my blog... Luckily , after 2 months today was a day when I had very little work to do in office... To be true.. I was feeling quite strange without any work today :D So here I am...

The first thing that I want to do is, to fulfill the promise I made to Mayank and Urv... Am so sorry guys for doing it so late, but what matters the most is that here I am with what I promised to both of you :)

Thanks a zillion times for the wonderful award :-) I received this "Proximity Award" from Urv, Richa, Varun and Mayank...

HUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGZZZZZZZZ to all of you my dear friends :)

Love you all a lot :)

Just to describe this award :)

"Blogs that receive this award are 'exceeding charming'. This blog invests and believes in the PROXIMITY-nearness in space, time and relationships. These blogs are exceedingly charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in prizes or self-aggrandizement! Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated."

I would love to share this award with my friends.. but luckily all my blogger friends already have been awarded with it :) so I will better come up with a new award for you guys soon ;)

Am not sure if anyone would ever come back to my blog if I start writing about everything that has happened in last 2 months in this one post ;) so I will better come up with small posts... may be a post per week won't be too difficult for me now :)

As for now... life has become quite a pain on weekdays cuz of excess workload but life has become so beautiful also recently, for I have found an amazing set of frenz in Pune... and s2 months back when we had decided to go for a trek... that was the day and till today , not even a single week has gone when we have not gone for a picnic , or a trek or an explore the jungle kinda thing over the weekends....

Tomorrow night we are leaving for "Vasota"... Am sure it is going to be fun... Will now soon start blogging about all these treks too :)

And once again :) Yippppppppppppppppppppppieeeeeee

Am so happy to be back on my blog :)

I will b back soon :D Pakkkkkkkkkkaaaaaaa Promiseeeeeeeeeeee :)

FINE !! Here is a post !!

2008-12-19T12:17:00.005+05:30

My staying away from Blogosphere surely is giving enough work to certain Nikamma's like Prats ;)

Here comes a guest post from him...

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The recent economic recession has started showing the effects in the blogosphere as well. The situation which you all must be knowing has become worse since past few months when on of our star bloggers have been under a consistent fire from the multinational giant International Booing Machine INC (IBM INC) Inc. As all of you must be aware that some public interest group and non profits have come ahead for the cause and opened a front FINE (Freedom Immediately for Nidhi Establishment). FINE is doing fine work to protect the local blogging Industry in the turbulent times. Our official correspondent, let's call him P for now, have got a chance to have a chat with Nidhi who has risen to instant fame with whole FINE issue.

A few excerpts from the chat is as following-

P: Good Morning Maam, How are you feeling?

N: Good Morning, I am very disgusted with things around. This kaam wali bai, she doesn't do a thing properly. She would come to clean the house when I have left and won't do an iota of work see how much dust…

P: I meant feeling about the issue?

N: Which issue, oh yes. This is a very important concern; I really feel very deeply for the cause and it should be taken up very seriously. These multinationals I tell you they only want to exploit the rich Indian intellect for their own good.

P: Suddenly this whole FINE thing, it has become such a big deal. People are saying some particular MNCs are trying to curtail your freedom of expression. What is this issue all about?

N: That's true, the issue has got a highlight lately. In fact the issues like this should be brought to the forefront. Now I am actually caught between a war between two multinational giants. The International Booing Machines who holds my current contract is in straight confrontations with another giant Go-Gol who holds the right to my blogs. IBM INC has come up with a negative strategy against Go-Gol to prohibit access to my highly intellectual content. This is where I have caught in the competition of two.

P: But Nidhi IBM INC is not a competitor of Go-Gol

N: Now that's what you media people do not understand. See IBMINC is planning to get into the online space. Now they just can't tolerate that someone who is associated with them is producing content for their competitor. Abhi mere blog ki wajah se Go-Gol ki sites par log aayenge to madsense revenue to unko hi milega.

P: But you write so long posts; people don't read them anyways so how does it matter?

N: Aap press walon ki yahi baat buri lagti hai, Mere posts lambe hote hai that's in the interest of Go-Gol . People often get scared of the long posts end up reading the advertisements to save time. You know I am a blogger who is the part of Go-Gol's core money making strategy and they are actually hunting people like me.

P: Oh Now I understand, But N then they should be promoting you to write more?

N: Oh no, they will not do it openly to disclose their strategy, but you know you can verify it from people in IBMINC. They are actually fighting back.

P: How?

N: Oh they just assigned me things of a 10 person so I am not left with anytime to generate content for Go-Gol (yeah that's they call it). Will you believe they make me sit in the office for 14hrs a day, okay 15. You know one they got sniff of my plan to write something over the night. The corporate stalwarts in NYC head office ensured that I couldn't make it home. They made me stay through the office whole night. One of my Hell-Wishers told me that if I tried to leave I just might not reach home.

P: But this is absolute violation of the fundamental rights. How can a corporation prohibit an individual to generate content to one's content.

N: Absolutely, that's what the FINE movement is all about. You know these corporations violating the fundamental rights this should be stopped. I should be allowed to produce my stuff after all it contributes to the GDP and the growth of the nation. So that's what FINE is all about.

P: Thanks N,it was really nice talking to you. I am sure our readers would now be completely aware of the movement and I am sure you would be supporting this movement. After all its our country and the Multi National Corporations are exploiting the talent pool of this country and this is a sin and would ruin our country in a longer run. The Onus is on us to prevent these devil MNCs to ruin our beloved motherland. So on this day if you are working for an MNC or an Indian Company that is just producing software for foreign companies to aap so rahe hai. Abhi jayiye aur http://rajeekhushi.blogspot.com/ & http://blog.prats.co.in (Founders FINE Movemet ) par apni presence register kariye. Its for us to fight against these multinationals…. Abhi kuch jyada ho gaya kya?? Do I sound like Prakash Karat?? I think I should end this here itself.

P.S. Nidhi if you want torture like the above one to stop, I believe you need to be writing far more often and also stop supporting the MNCs (don't get me started on this)

That Night !!

2008-12-12T20:43:00.004+05:30

I am not sure if I am supposed to blog this incident.. cuz it left me numb for quite a long time and while I have now started writing about it... I can feel that weird and numb feeling creeping in once again...

I shop for most of my friends... My friends just let me know their budget and what they want and I get them whatever they want... Mostly I help them buy clothes, footwears , accessories and handbags.

Last Sunday was one such day, when I was supposed to shop for my roomie Geet... Me and Geet left for the market in the evening at around 5 pm. We were done with our shopping by 9 pm and decided to take our dinner in some restaurant... We were done with our dinner by 10 pm and hence we left for our flat.

It had got quite cold by then... I was in my churidar kurta and a shawl draped around me and Geet was in her jeans tshirt and a jacket... Enough to keep us from the cold wind that was thrashing against our faces while we were driving back home...

We were both laughing and discussing how we had shopped and got some real good deals and were kind of pleasantly surprised to know that we had spent quite a big amount on Geet's stuff in just 4 hours... It was then that I saw a thin figure walking on the other side of the road...

He was a senile man with a stooping back... wearing nothing but a completely torn underpants... shivering badly...

For a moment, I felt like stopping or a moment, but then I just didn't and drove ahead... And then in a minute I just turned my Activa back towards him...

It was quite late and there wasn't much traffic on the road... It felt kinda scary to go to him but something in me just told me that I had to go to him... I reached where he was standing, got down from my Activa and looked at him...

I can never forget that look on his face.. as if begging for a life... I am sorry but I can't just explain what it was... I have never felt so scared in my life... No.. I wasn't scared of him... I was scared for in a flash I just could see my grandparents in that state... I know its weird... Its too weird... but I just don't know why that thought came to me...

I just took out my jacket from my bag and gave it to him... That was the only thing with me at that moment... I thought of giving my shawl too but he somehow raised his hand to stop me...

Geet too was feeling almost as same as me... We didn't know what to do...

He tried to speak... but couldn't... He asked us in gestures if we could give him anything to eat... There was no place to get something to eat for him in vicinity... We just didn't understand what to do...

If we had asked him to stay there and gone to get something for him, it would have taken at least 30 minutes... So Geet took out Rs. 200 from her wallet and gave it to him , asking him to find something for himself to eat...

While we were there, few more people stopped by. One more guy gave the old man his jacket and one guy offered to drive the old man to some place, so that he could get the old man something to eat....

Me and Geet left for our home... Through out the way, neither of us spoke a word... May be the silence was speaking and at the same time the silence was killing both of us...

We reached home... and just went to our room and lied down on beds without speaking a word to each other or to the other two roomies...

After an hour or so, we both got up, washed our faces, kept all the stuff in place... and went back to our beds...

We both knew none of us were sleeping... probably thinking about the same thing...

I didn't sleep that night... There was a train of thoughts that kept making noise , running from here and there in my mind...

I was happy that day to see that even today humanity exist... There were a lot many people who had stopped that day after we stopped and helped the old man... May be we all are always ready to help the needy... may be we just need that trigger... may be me and Geet were just a trigger that day...

I was happy cuz I and Geet could help the old man in a little way... I know that was just a temporary help... but that was all I could do at that moment...

I was numb cuz I couldn't imagine how could life be so cruel... What could that man have done to deserve something like this ? Why few people drive in Mercs, BMWs, Audis and few don't even have the bare minimum with them...

Why such a huge gap ? I could see my wardrobe full of clothes... I can wear new clothes for almost 2 -3 months in a row... and there that old man was... without a single shred of cloth on him... Why ? I felt ashamed... I felt sick... Was I or people like me responsible for all that in some or the other way ?

Why did I see Dadaji, Dadiji and Nanaji like that ? Why on earth did I see that... I did not like that image... I just did not like that thought...

My Dadi is 84 years old lady who is 5 ft tall and weighs 28 kgs... She hardly walks to any place... not cuz she can't, she can run... she has got so much of energy in her that it amazes everyone... but cuz she is like a baby to all of us... We all ( me and my bro and all my cousins ) just lift her in arms and take her to places... People in our colony and everywhere , often smile and laugh about this... This is kind of a trend in our family... no one lets her walk for she is such a doll...

I could see how I usually go and lie down in Dadaji's lap and how we make sure he gets whatever he needs... I could see how I fight with Nanaji for not taking care of his health...

And there I were... sulking for I saw them in such a bad state.. so what if it were for a fraction of a second... the point is why did that image come to me...

Why this survival of fittest theory ? Why can't everyone get a bare minimum to live a normal life... I know all these questions make no sense... but this is how my thoughts are running in my head right now...

Its been a week, I am busy with my work... I am hardly finding time to breathe... but still there is one moment in 24 hours when I see that old man in my thoughts and I go numb... Its too weird... It was not the first time that I had seen someone in such a state...

My grandfather and dad have seen days when they really worked hard to save single penny... They both know what poverty is... Dad being a doctor, often gets to meet such people every now and then... and I have seen people helping needy people every now and then...

Still after all this, what I do not understand is... that why the rich keeps getting richer and poor keeps getting poorer ?

I called up mom at around 3 am... yeah I know it was stupid... but I had to talk to her... Poured out everything in front of her... shared with her whatever I was feeling...

She heard me and explained to me something that I had already known... but since it came from her :) it sounded just the way I wanted to feel at that very moment :)

She told me this is life and this will go on... She told me that the best we can do is to help someone in need and to make sure never do anything that could hurt someone... Not just this she also told me that the way I usually loose my mind whenever I see someone in tattered clothes or begging... I should not... For not everyone truly is needy... These days many people just use all these tantrums for easy money... targeting emotions of people around... She told me that what I did was correct and I should not bother myself with so much... for I was not responsible for any of those things happening to so many poor people...

She asked me did I feel even once that I should not have given the jacket to that man... and when I replied in a NO... she said that was the most beautiful part... You did not regret what you did... and you did it cuz you felt it should have been done...

She told me not to go overboard with all this cuz not everyone deserves that help... She hates it when fully capable of working as maids kinda ladies use their newly borns as props and beg in their names... I too hate that... but I usually end up giving something to them...

Mom told me I was doing no good that ways... I was simply helping such people grow more in number... I realized what mom said...

It is difficult to express and elucidate everything that we spoke about that night...

All I remember is, that one hour chat with Maa was enough to calm me down... Am not sure how am I going to bring any change in the world... I can't think that big... but I will try to help people who genuinely need help and would try to keep myself from going overboard... I need to understand that this is how nature is... There has to be a balance of everything...

There are rich... there are poor... there are nice people... there are bad people... there is good... there is bad... sometimes good will happen... sometimes bad will hit us... We just need to do what our heart says and we need to help our heart choose the right thing to do....

Am not sure if anything I said made any sense... I just had to being it out of me... I just had too...

There are so many things that have got accumulated inside my mind... that now I really need to take it out... and as always , I can think of only my blog to do this :)

I just wish I do what I should really do... what really should be done...

I wish....

Please Forgive Me !!

2008-12-11T17:54:00.002+05:30

My Dear Blog and My Dear Friends in Blogsville !!

Please forgive me for staying away from my blog for so long :(

Don't blame me :( Blame IBM.... It didn't make me work last 1.5 years, the way its making me work now...

I promise to be back soon... Really soon....

Am not sure, how many of you would have missed my LONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG posts.... but I surely am missing posting on my blog and getting your views :(

Hoping to be back soon...

~ Nidhi

Through Your Eyes !!

2008-11-18T17:11:00.006+05:30

TAGs have been around for a long time :) and hence when I found this new thing on Mayank's Blog.. I just felt I needed to post it on my blog too :)

TAGs usually are about oneself... but this is more of an opportunity to know yourself through someone else's eyes...

So I request you all to answer all these questions for me :) and let me know what you think of it :-)

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. Something I have and YOU want?
4. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it?
5. Describe me in one word.
6. What was your first impression of me?
7. Do you still think that way about me now?
8. What reminds you of me?
9. If you could give me anything what would it be?
10. How well do you know me?
11. How do you see me in the future?
12. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn’t?
13. Are you going to post this in your blog and see what I say about you?

Aaj Mai Boond Hoon... Boond Hoon Baarish Ki...

2008-11-10T17:53:00.002+05:30

Urv and Richa have tagged me...

Here are the rules:

1. Put your music player on Shuffle mode. (Mere N73 ki jai ho )
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. Write the song name no matter what it is.
4. After you've answered all of the questions, tag 5 other people and let them know they've been tagged.

"Long Posts" Well ! That is my trademark I suppose ;) This is one of the simplest TAG, but being ME :D I couldn't avoid putting special efforts into it and making it appears yet another long post :)

Most of the songs in my phone are romantic songs or ghazals... I specially added few

DHINCHAK songs, to make the TAG spicier... but my phone knows my taste pretty well, and kept itself from playing any of the Dhinchak songs...

Most of the songs, kind of fit really well as answers to the listed questions :)

So here goes the list:

1. If someone says "Is this okay?", you say:

Ek Din Fursat Ne... Thaame Haath Humaare...
Le Gayi Us Dagar Pe... Jahaan Rehti Hai Bahaare...
Chal Diye Hum Bhi Ghar Se... Ho Ke Kuchh Befikar Se...
Dil Thaa Apne Bharose... Hum The Dil Ke Sahaare...

Raah Mein Mod Aayaa... Roshni Ho Gayi Kam...
Kuchh Dil Ghabraayaa... Ki Kahaan Aa Gaye Hum...
Aage Us Mod Ke Bhi... To Bahaarein Nahin Thi...
Bhooli Kuchh Khwaahishein Aur... Khwaab The Bus Humaare...

Ek Din Fursat Ne... Thaame Haath Humaare...
Le Gayi Us Dagar Pe... Jahaan Rehti Hai Bahaare...

Bewajah Lag Rahi Thi... Jab Talaash Humaari...
Ek Khushboo Uthi Aur... Rut Badal Gayi Saari...
Saamne Tum Khade The... Failaa Ke Baahein...
Jaise Har Dard Meraa... Khud Mein Loge Samaaye...
Pal Badaa Mukhtsar Thaa... Tere Seene Pe Sir Thaa...
Yu Lagaa Mar Naa Jaaye... Itni Khushiyon Ke Maare...

Ek Din Fursat Ne... Thaame Haath Humaare...
Le Gayi Us Dagar Pe... Jahaan Rehti Hai Bahaare...

(Forgive me for boring you with the whole song... but couldn't keep myself from sharing the beautiful lyrics... :) )

2. What would best describe your personality?

Jaage Jaage... Soye Soye... Tere Nainaa...
Sapno Mein... Khoye Khoye... Tere Nainaa...
Tanhayeeon Ki... Parchhayeeon Mein... Tum Hi Ho Naa...
Tere Nainaa... Haaye Nainaa...
Sooni Sooni... Sooni Sooni... Si Ye Rainaa...
Aajaa Piyaa... Tere Binaa... Nahin Chainaa...
Uchaaiyon Ki... Gehraayeeon Mein... Tum Hi Ho Naa...
Tere Nainaa... Haaye Nainaa...

Paayaa Tujhe To... Sab Mil Gayaa...
Ehsaas Aisaa... Ki Sab Khil Gayaa...
Jaise Himaalaya.... Khud Ke Pighal Ke... Saagar Ban Gayaa...
Haan In Palon Ki... Raanaaiyon Mein... Tum Hi Ho Naa...
Tere Nainaa... Haaye Nainaa...

Madhosh Raatein... Pal Pal Suhaani...
Rut Gaa Rahi Hai... Dil Ke Taraane...
Saare Nazaare... Chaand Taare... Gungunaane Lage...
In Waadiyon Mein... Angdaaiyon Mein... Tum Hi Ho Naa...
Tere Nainaa... Haaye Nainaa...

Jaage Jaage... Soye Soye... Tere Nainaa...
Sapno Mein... Khoye Khoye... Tere Nainaa...
Tanhayeeon Ki... Parchhayeeon Mein... Tum Hi Ho Naa..
Tere Nainaa... Haaye Nainaa...
Sooni Sooni... Sooni Sooni... Si Ye Rainaa...
Aajaa Piyaa... Tere Binaa... Nahin Chainaa...
Uchaaiyon Ki... Gehraayeeon Mein... Tum Hi Ho Naa...
Tere Nainaa... Haaye Nainaa...

(Yeah what I know is... That these days... my so called nainaa are "Jaage Jaage" during the night when I am supposed to sleep :D and "Soye Soye" during the office hours... )

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?

Jaltee Dhoop Mein... Halki Hawaa Chal Gayee...
Milaa Bharosaa Yaar Kaa... Jaan Ab Phir Sambhal Gayee...
Khwaahish Saans Le... Janjeerein Pighal Gayee...
Sabaa Umeed Ko... Maathe Pe Yoon Mal Gayee...
Soone Sehraao Mein... Hasrat Pali Hai...
Haaye !! Toofaan Mein Aaj Ye... Shammaa Jali Hai...
Shaayad Hai Ye Dosti... Yaa Imaan Ka Asar...
Shaayad Hai Ye Dosti... Yaa Imaan Ka Asar...
Aage Kyaa Likhaa... Humko Kya Khabar...
Imaan Ka Asar... Imaan Ka Asar...

(Very true... more than anything else... HONESTY matters to me... And I really like people
who are honest :) )

4. How do you feel today?

Baawari Piyaa Ki... Baawari Piyaa Ki...
Kaase Kahe Jaa Ke... Peer Jiyaa Ki...
Baawari Piyaa Ki... Baawari Piyaa Ki...

Piyu Rang Mann Ki... Chunar Rangaayi...
Piyu Piyu Rat Ke... Piyu Mein Samaayi...
Ban Gayi Chhaayaa... Chhal Baliyaa Ki...
Baawari Piyaa Ki... Baawari Piyaa Ki...

Ita Uta Dekhe... Panth Nihaare...
Har Din Pal Chhin... Naam Pukaare...
Sudh Nahin Bisare... Mann Basiyaa Ki...
Baawari Piyaa Ki... Baawari Piyaa Ki...

Baawari Piyaa Ki... Baawari Piyaa Ki...
Kaase Kahe Jaa Ke... Peer Kiyaa Ki...
Baawari Piyaa Ki... Baawari Piyaa Ki...

( Hihihihih.... Whoops... Now this one sure is one of my favourite songs... But for now, am no Piyaa Baawari :D )

5. What is your life's purpose?

Apne Haathon Ki Lakeeron Mein... Basaa Le Mujhko...
Mai Hoon Teraa... To Naseeb Apnaa... Banaa Le Mujhko...

MujhseTu Poochhne Aayaa Hai... Wafaa Ke Maane...
Ye Teri Saadaadili... Maar Naa Daale Mujhko...

Khud Ko Mai... Baant Naa Daalu... Kahin Daaman Daaman...
Kar Diyaa Tune Agar... Mere Hawaale Mujhko...

Waadaa Fir Waadaa Hai... Mai Zeher Bhi Pee Jaaoon Kati...
Shart Ye Hai... Koi Baahon Mein Sambhaale Mujho...

Apne Haathon Ki Lakeeron Mein... Basaa Le Mujhko...
Mai Hoon Teraa... To Naseeb Apnaa... Banaa Le Mujhko...

(Hailaa !! Kisko naseeb banana hai and kiska naseeb banana hai... Aisa purpose life ka :-O )

6. What do your friends think of you?

Kitni Narmi Se... Kitne Dheere Se...
Dil Mein Aati Hai... Dabe Paaon Mohabbat Aur Fir...
Dhadkano Mein Ye... Chhup Kar Dolti Hai...
Rang Saa Zindagi Mein... Gholti Hai...
Aankhon Aankhon Mein Jaise... Bolti Hai...
Haule Se... Dheere Se...
Kitni Narmi Se... Kitne Dheere Se...

Phool Par.. Os Jaise Girti Hai...
Leher Saahil Se... Jaise Milti Hai...
Khushboo Jaise... Fizaa Mein Chhaati Hai...
Dil Mein Aise... Mohabbat Aati Hai...
Dhadkano Mein Ye... Chhup Kar Dolti Hai...
Rang Saa Zindagi Mein... Gholti Hai...
Aankhon Aankhon Mein Jaise... Bolti Hai...
Haule Se... Dheere Se...
Kitni Narmi Se... Kitne Dheere Se...

Kitne Rangeen... Nazaarein Lagte Hai...
Jitne Mausan Hai.. Pyaare Lagte Hai...
Ye Hai To Duniyaa... Khoobsurat Hai...
Haaye Kya Cheez... Ye Mohabbat Hai...
Dhadkano Mein Ye... Chhup Kar Dolti Hai...
Rang Saa Zindagi Mein... Gholti Hai...
Aankhon Aankhon Mein Jaise... Bolti Hai...
Haule Se... Dheere Se...
Kitni Narmi Se... Kitne Dheere Se...

7. What do you think of your parents?

Tu Nahin To Zindagi Mein... Aur Kyaa Reh Jaayega...
Door Tak Tanhaaiyon Kaa... Silsilaa Reh Jaayegaa...

( That surely is the biggest truth of my life :) , Can't do without my parents :) )

Dard Ki Saari Tahein... Aur Saare Guzare Haadse...
Sab Dhuaan Ho Jaayenge.... Ik Faakeyaa Reh Jaayegaa...

Yoon Bhi Hogaa Wo Mujhe... Dil Se Bhulaa Degaa Magar...
Ye Bhi Hogaa Khud Usi Mein... Ik Khalaa Reh Jaayegaa...

Daayare Inkaar Ke... Iqraar Ki Sargoshiyaan...
Ye Agar Toote Kabhi... To Faaslaa Reh Jaayegaa...

Tu Nahin To Zindagi Mein... Aur Kyaa Reh Jaayega...
Door Tak Tanhaaiyon Kaa... Silsilaa Reh Jaayegaa...

8. What do you think about very often?

Ye Honslaa... Kaise Jhuke...
Ye Aarzoo... Kaise Ruke...
Manzil Mushkil To Kyaa...
Dhundhlaa Saahil To Kyaa...
Tanhaa Hai Dil To Kyaa...

Raah Pe Kaatein Bikhre Agar...
Uspe To Fir Bhi Chalnaa Hi Hai...
Shaam Chhupaa Le Suraj Magar...
Raat Ko Ek Din Dhalnaa Hi Hai...
Rut Ye Dhal Jaayegi...
Himmat Rang Laayegi...
Subah Fir Aayegi...

Hogi Humein Jo Rehmat Adaa...
Dhoop Kategi Saaye Tale...
Apni Khudaa Se Hai Yeh Duaa...
Manzil Lagaa Le Humko Gale...
Juraat Sau Baar Rahe...
Gunjaa Ikraar Rahe...
Zindaa Har Pyaar Rahe...

Ye Honslaa... Kaise Jhuke...
Ye Aarzoo... Kaise Ruke...
Manzil Mushkil To Kyaa...
Dhundhlaa Saahil To Kyaa...
Tanhaa Hai Dil To Kyaa...

( Very true... I do not believe in Giving up... I have always faught the odds.. and will continue to do so :) )

9. What is 2+2?

Ek Din Aap Yoon... Humko Mil Jaayenge...
Phool Hi Phool... Raahon Mein Khil Jaayenge...
Maine Sochaa Naa Thaa...

Ek Din Zindagi... Itni Hogi Haseen...
Jhumegaa Aasmaan... Gaayegi Yeh Zameen...
Maine Sochaa Naa Thaa...

Dil Ki Daali Pe... Kaliyaan Si Khilne Lagi...
Jab Nigaahein... Nigaahon Se Milne Lagi...

Ek Din Is Tarah... Hosh Kho Jaayenge...
Paas Aaye To... Madhosh Ho Jaayenge...
Maine Sochaa Naa Thaa...

Ek Din Aap Yoon... Humko Mil Jaayenge...
Phool Hi Phool... Raahon Mein Khil Jaayenge...
Maine Sochaa Naa Thaa...

Jagmagaati Huyi... Jaagati Raat Hai...
Raat Hai Yaa... Sitaaron Ki Baaraat Hai...

Ek Din Dil Ki Raahon Mein... Apne Liye...
Jal Uthenge... Mohabbat Ke Itne Diye...
Maine Sochaa Naa Thaa...

Ek Din Zindagi... Itni Hogi Haseen...
Jhumegaa Aasmaan... Gaayegi Yeh Zameen...
Maine Sochaa Naa Thaa...

Ek Din Aap Yoon... Humko Mil Jaayenge...
Phool Hi Phool... Raahon Mein Khil Jaayenge...
Maine Sochaa Naa Thaa...

( This is cute, beautiful, funny, sweet :) Wowwwwwwwwwwww )

10. What do you think of your best friend?

Kuchh Khushbooyein... Yaadon Ke Jungle Se Beh Chali...
Kuchh Khidkiyaan... Lamhon Ki Dastak Se Khul Gayi...
Kuchh Geet Puraane... Rakhe The Sirhaane...
Kuchh Sur Kahin Khoye The... Bandish Mein Kahin...
Jeene Ke Ishaare Mil Gaye... Bichhade The... Kinaare Mil Gaye...

(My frenz surely are the my reasons to smile :) and yes... its cuz of them that Mujhe Jeene Ke Ishaare Mil Gaye :) )

Meri Zindagi Mein Teri Baarish Kyaa Huyi...
Mere Raaste Dariyaa Bane... Behne Lage...
Meri Karwaton Ko... Tune Aa Ke Jo Chhuaa...
Kayi Khwaab Neendon Ki... Gali Rehne Lage...
Jeene Ke Ishaare Mil Gaye... Bichhade The... Kinaare Mil Gaye...

Meri Lau Hawaaon Se... Jhagad Ke Jee Uthi...
Mere Har Andhere Ko... Ujaale Pee Gaye...
Tune Has Ke Mujhse... Muskuraane Ko Kahaa...
Mere Mann Ke Mausam... Gulmohar Se Ho Gaye...
Jeene Ke Ishaare Mil Gaye... Bichhade The... Kinaare Mil Gaye...

Kuchh Khushbooyein... Saason Se Saason Mein Ghul Gayi...
Kuchh Khidkiyaan... Aankhon Hi Aankhon Mein Khul Gayi...
Kuchh Pyaas Adhoori... Kuchh Shaam Sindoori...
Kuchh Reshami Gunaahon Mein Raatein Dhal Gayi...
Jeene Ke Ishaare Mil Gaye... Bichhade The... Kinaare Mil Gaye...

11. What do you think of the person you like?

Ajnabi... Khwaab Mein... Dekhaa Thaa Jo... Ho Tum Wahi...
Dil Mujhe... Le Chalaa... Chal Padaa... Mai To Wahin...
Raat Din Mai Jaagtaa Hoon... Beete Pal Ko Sochtaa Hoon...
Har Kadam Ko Dekhtaa Hoon Mai...
Ajnabi... Khwaab Mein... Dekhaa Thaa Jo... Ho Tum Wahi...
Dil Mujhe... Le Chalaa... Chal Padaa... Mai To Wahin...

Kuchh To Nayaa... Ehsaas Hai... Jo Meraa Mann... Ud Rahaa...
Roke Se Bhi... Ruktaa Nahin... Kis Ore Ye... Mud Rahaa...
Boondein Giri... Khwaahishon Ki To Mai... Ek Pal Bhi Naa... Haath Mein Rahaa...
Ajnabi... Khwaab Mein... Dekhaa Thaa Jo... Ho Tum Wahi...
Dil Mujhe... Le Chalaa... Chal Padaa... Mai To Wahin...

Khushboo Ghuli... Jazbaat Mein... Jaane Paheli... Hai Kyaa...
Baithe Huye... Sochaa Karoon... Ye Kyaa Muhje... Ho Gayaa...
Jhonkaa Koi Ek... Anjaan Saa... Dhadkano Ko Meri... Chhoo Rahaa...
Ajnabi... Khwaab Mein... Dekhaa Thaa Jo... Ho Tum Wahi...
Dil Mujhe... Le Chalaa... Chal Padaa... Mai To Wahin...

( Hmmm... Hmmm... Hmmm... :-) )

12. What is your life story?

Aankhon Mein... Anjaane... Rehte Manzar Kayi...
Seene Mein... Chubhati Hai... Koi Bebasi Nayi...
Yaadon Mein Saji... Kuchh Baatein Ankahee...
In Baaton Mein Kahin... Khoyi Hai Zindagi...
Aankhon Mein... Anjaane... Rehte Manzar Kayi...
Seene Mein... Chubhati Hai... Koi Bebasi Nayi...

Dil... Bhoole Nahin Kyu... Beete Pal...
Koi Yahaan... Kare Bhi To Kyaa...
Toote Hai Armaan... Sapne Bhi...
Kaise Inhe Sawaaroon Mein...
Yaadon Mein Saji... Kuchh Baatein Ankahee...
In Baaton Mein Kahin... Khoyi Hai Zindagi...

Kyaa Zindagi Hai... Poochho Naa...
Leti Sadaa... Naye Imtihaan...
Ye Ishq Bhi... Ek Sazaa Hai...
Kaise Tujhe... Bataaoon Mai...
Yaadon Mein Saji... Kuchh Baatein Ankahee...
In Baaton Mein Kahin... Khoyi Hai Zindagi...

Aankhon Mein... Anjaane... Rehte Manzar Kayi...
Seene Mein... Chubhati Hai... Koi Bebasi Nayi...

( I love this song.. and I definitely do feel low some times... but this is not my LIFE STORY :(( , My life story is a happy happy story :-) )

13. What do you want to be when you grow up?

Lukkaa Chhuppi... Bahut Huyi... Saamane Aajaa Naa...
Kahaan Kahaan... Dhundhaa Tujhe... Thak Gayi Hai Ab Teri Maa...
Aajaa Saanjh Huyi... Mujhe Teri Fikar...
Dhundhlaa Gayi... Dekh Meri Nazar... Aajaa Naa...

Kyaa Bataaoon Maa... Kahaan Hoon Mai...
Yahaan Udne Ko Mere... Khulaa Aasmaan Hai...
Tere Kisso Jaisaa Bholaa... Salonaa Jahaan Hai... Yahaan Sapno Walaa...
Meri Patang... Ho Befikar... Ud Rahi Hai Maa...
Dor Koi... Loote Nahin... Beech Se Kaate Naa...
Aajaa Saanjh Huyi... Mujhe Teri Fikar...
Dhundhlaa Gayi... Dekh Meri Nazar... Aajaa Naa...

Teri Raah Takein Akhiyaan... Jaane Kaisaa Kaisaa Hoye Jiyaa...
Dheere Dheere Aangan... Utare Andheraa... Teraa Deep Kahaan...
Dhal Ke Suraj... Kare Ishaaraa... Chandaa Tu Hai Kahaan... Mere Chandaa Tu Hai Kahaan...
Lukkaa Chhuppi... Bahut Huyi... Saamane Aajaa Naa...
Kahaan Kahaan... Dhundhaa Tujhe... Thak Gayi Hai Ab Teri Maa...
Aajaa Saanjh Huyi... Mujhe Teri Fikar...
Dhundhlaa Gayi... Dekh Meri Nazar... Aajaa Naa...

Kaise Tujhko Dikhaaoon... Yahaan Hai Kyaa...
Maine Jharne Se Paani Maa... Tod Ke Piyaa Hai...
Gunchaa Gunchaa Kahin Khwaabon Kaa... Uchhal Ke Chhuaa Hai...
Chhaayaa Liye Bhali Dhoop Yahaan Hai... Nayaa Nayaa Saa Hai Roop Yahaan...
Yahaan Sab Kuchh Hai Maa Fir Bhi... Lage Bin Tere Mujhko Akelaa...

Aajaa Saanjh Huyi... Mujhe Teri Fikar...
Dhundhlaa Gayi... Dekh Meri Nazar... Aajaa Naa...
Aajaa Saanjh Huyi... Mujhe Teri Fikar...
Dhundhlaa Gayi... Dekh Meri Nazar... Aajaa Naa...

( I do not know how relevant this song is... but this song is too close to my heart... there is something about this song, it touches the depths of my heart... I can listen to this song infinite times... Everytime I listen to this song... something just happens to me.. and I can never really express what it is... )

14. What do you think of when you see the person you like?

Aaj Kal Paaon Zameen Par... Nahin Padte Mere...
Bolo Dekhaa Hai Kabhi... Tumne Mujhe Udte Huye...

Jab Bhi Thaamaa Hai Teraa Haath... To Dekhaa Hai...
Log Kehte Hai Ke Bus... Haath Ki Rekhaa Hai...
Humne Dekhaa Hai... Do Takdeero Ko Judte Huye...

Neend Si Rehti Hai... Halkaa Saa Nashaa Rehtaa Hai...
Raat Din Aankhon Mein... Ek Chehraa Basaa Rehtaa Hai...
Par Lagi Aankhon Ko Dekhaa Hai Kabhi... Udte Huye...

Jaane Kyaa Pataa... Har Baat Pe Kuchh Hotaa Hai...
Din Mein Kuchh Hotaa Hai... Raat Mein Kuchh Hotaa Hai...
Thaam Lenaa Jo Kabhi... Dekho Humein Udte Huye...

Aaj Kal Paaon Zameen Par... Nahin Padte Mere...
Bolo Dekhaa Hai Kabhi... Tumne Mujhe Udte Huye...

( Very True ;) )

15. What do your parents think of you?

Tu Bole Glass Aadhaa Khaali... Mai Bolun Aadhaa Bharaa...
Mai Bolun Kitnaa Saaraa... Tu Bole Zaraa Zaraa...
Mai Bolu Din Hai To...Tu Bole Raat Nahin...
Baat To Wahi Hai Naa... Bus Wohi Baat Nahin...
Baat To Hai Bus Yahi.. Ki Meri Baat Bus...
Jaane Tu... Jaane Tu Yaa Jaane Naa...
Maane Tu... Maane Tu Yaa Maane Naa...

Tu Soche Ye Zindagi... Ye Naa Badlegi Kabhi...
Mai Sochu.. Sab Badaltaa Hai... Tu Naa Badlegi Kabhi...
Mai Sochu... Tu Hi Tu... Meraa Koi Aur Nahin...
Tu Soche... Mai Hu Teraa... Bus Teraa Koi Aur Nahin...
Koi aur Ho Yaa Naa Ho... Tu Hai... Mai Hoon Bus...
Jaane Tu... Jaane Tu Yaa Jaane Naa...
Maane Tu... Maane Tu Yaa Maane Naa...

( So true......... This happens to me almost everytime... :) Usually me and my parents want the same thing, but I always end up arguing with them :D May be just cuz the final destination for me and my parents is always same, but the paths we choose are usually different :) )

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?

Aankhon Mein Intezaar Ke... Baadal Baras Gaye...
Hum Dekhne Ko Aapka... Chehraa Taras Gaye...
Bin Tum Gumsum Hone Lage... Jaane Kis Duniyaa Mein Khone Lage...
Aankhon Mein Intezaar Ke... Baadal Baras Gaye...

Resham Se Dil Ke Ye Rishtey... Rishton Ki Naazuk Ye Dor...
Is Dor Pe Jaanejaanaa... Chaltaa Nahin Koi Zor...
Tujhe Dhundhati Hai Nazarein... Zaraa Saamne To Aa...
Bebas Dil Ye Meraa... Dil Thaamane To Aa...
Saare Jahaan Mein Tum Humein Tanhaa Saa Kar Gaye...
Bin Tum Gumsum Hone Lage... Jaane Kis Duniyaa Mein Khone Lage...
Aankhon Mein Intezaar Ke... Baadal Baras Gaye...

Bheegi Bheegi Lagti Hai Raatein... Dilbar Teri Yaad Mein...
Tu Hi Chhupaa Rehtaa Hai Shaayad... Meri Har Fariyaad Mein...
Tu Kareeb Dil Ke Itnaa... Hai Meherbaan Mere...
Mai Sunu Teri Wo Baatein... Jo Mann Mein Tu Kahe...
Kis Tarah Ye Tum Meri... Dhadkan Mein Bus Gaye...
Bin Tum Gumsum Hone Lage... Jaane Kis Duniyaa Mein Khone Lage...
Aankhon Mein Intezaar Ke... Baadal Baras Gaye...

( Oye...... dulhans are supposed to make the dulha wait... ye meri story ulti kyu :(( )

17. What will they play at your funeral?

Ek Banjaaraa... Ektaare Par Kab Se Gaave...
Jeevan Hai Ek Dor... Dor Uljhe Hi Jaave...
Aasaani Si Girahein... Khulati Nahin Hai...
Mann Wo Hatilaa Hai... Jo Fir Bhi Suljhaave...
Raahi Kaa To Kaam Hai... Chaltaa Hi Jaave...
Saaiyaan Ve... Saaiyaan Ve... Sun Sun Saaiyaan Ve...

Tinkaa Tinkaa Chidiyaa Laave... Aise Apnaa Ghar Wo Banaawe...
Zarraa Zarraa Tu Bhi Jod Ke Ek... Ghirondaa Banaa...
Boond Boond Hai Banataa Saagar... Dhaagaa Dhaagaa Banati Chaadar...
Dheere Dheere Yoon Bhi Apnaa... Jeevan Sajaa...
Seenchataa Hai Yahaan Jo Bagiyaa Ko... Wohi Phool Hai Paave...
Raahi Kaa To Kaam Hai... Chaltaa Hi Jaave...
Saaiyaan Ve... Saaiyaan Ve... Sun Sun Saaiyaan Ve...

Din Hai Parbat Jaise Bhaari... Raatein Bojhal Bojhal Saari...
Tu Ye Sochtaa Hai Raah Kaise... Aasaan Ho...
Saari Anjaani Hai Raahein... Jinmein Dhundhein Teri Nigaahein...
Koi Aisaa Pal Jo... Aaj Aakar Meherbaan Ho...
Ghoome Kab Se Dagar Dagar... Tu Mann Ko Ye Samjhaave...
Raahi Kaa To Kaam Hai... Chaltaa Hi Jaave...
Saaiyaan Ve... Saaiyaan Ve... Sun Sun Saaiyaan Ve...

Ek Banjaaraa... Ektaare Par Kab Se Gaave...
Jeevan Hai Ek Dor... Dor Uljhe Hi Jaave...
Aasaani Si Girahein... Khulati Nahin Hai...
Mann Wo Hatilaa Hai... Jo Fir Bhi Suljhaave...
Raahi Kaa To Kaam Hai... Chaltaa Hi Jaave...
Saaiyaan Ve... Saaiyaan Ve... Sun Sun Saaiyaan Ve...

( Hmmm.... On a serious note... so true it is... Jeevan Hai Ek Dor... Dor Uljhe Hi Jaaye... Aasaani Se Girahein... Khulati Nahin Hai... Mann Wo Hatilaa Hai... Jo Fir Bhi Sukjhaave... RAAHI KAA TO KAAM HAI... CHALTAA HI JAAVE :-) )

18. What is your hobby/interest?

Teri Zindagi Mein Pyaar Hai To... Sab Kuchh Hai...
Jo Pyaar Nahin To... Kuchh Bhi Nahin...
Meri Aankhon Mein... Kisi Chaahat Kaa...
Ikraar Hai To... Sab Kuchh Hai...
Ikraar Nahin To... Kuchh Bhi Nahin...
Pyaar Pyaar Pyaar... Baantatein Chalo Pyaar...
Pyaar Pyaar Pyaar... Baantatein Chalo Pyaar...

Koshish To Koi Kar Ke Dekhe... Sapne Sachche Bhi Hote Hai...
Duniyaa Koi Itni Buri Nahin... Yahaan Log Achche Bhi Hote Hai...
Ye Chain Ye Qaraar Hai To... Sab Kuchh Hai...
Ye Qaraar Nahin To... Kuchh Bhi Nahin...
Teri Zindagi Mein Pyaar Hai To... Sab Kuchh Hai...
Jo Pyaar Nahin To... Kuchh Bhi Nahin...
Pyaar Pyaar Pyaar... Baantatein Chalo Pyaar...

( Right !! Right !! Right !! i love to spread smiles... and I try to do that.. dunno how successful I have been so far... but yes... it gives immense pleasure to see a smiling face and more than that when I am one of the reasons for the smile on any face... )

19. What is your biggest secret?

Dil Naaummeed To Nahin... Naakaam Hi To Hai...
Lambi Hai Gum Ki Shaam... Magar Shaam Hi To Hai...

Ye Safar Bahut Hai Kathin Magar...
Naa Udaas Ho Mere Humsafar...

Ye Sitam Ki Raat Hai... Dhalne Ko...
Hai Andheraa Gum Kaa... Pighalane Ko...
Zaraa Der Lage Ismein... Lage Agar...
Naa Udaas Ho Mere Humsafar...
Ye Safar Bahut Hai Kathin Magar...
Naa Udaas Ho Mere Humsafar...

Nahin Rehne Waali Ye Mushkilein...
Ke Hai Agle Mod Pe Manzilein...
Meri Baat Kaa Tu Yakeen Kar...
Naa Udaas Ho Mere Humsafar...
Ye Safar Bahut Hai Kathin Magar...
Naa Udaas Ho Mere Humsafar...

Kabhi Dhoondh Legaa Ye Carvaan...
Wo Nayee Zameen... Nayaa Aasmaan...
Jise Dhoondhti Hai Teri Nazar...
Naa Udaas Ho Mere Humsafar...
Ye Safar Bahut Hai Kathin Magar...
Naa Udaas Ho Mere Humsafar...

( Am all smiles for this one :-) )

20. What do you think of your friends?

Meri Duniyaa... Meri Duniyaa... Meri Duniyaa Tu Hi Re...
Meri Khushiyaan... Meri Khushiyaan... Meri Khushiyaan Tu Hi Re...
Raat Din... Tere Liye... Sajde Karoon... Duaaein Maangoo Re...
Mai Yahaan... Apne Liye... Rab Se Teri... Balaaein Maangoo Re...

Tune Hi... Jeenaa Sikhaayaa... Hum Logo Ko... Achchha Insaan Banaayaa...
Zindagi... Hai Teraa Saayaaa... Anjaano Ko... Seedhaa Raastaa Dikhaayaa....
Tu Nayi... Ek Roshni... Le Aayi Hai... Jeevan Ki Raahon Mein...
Har Ghadi... Guzare Teri... Saari Umar... Ab Apni Baahon Mein...

Humne Ki... Jo Bhi Khataaein... Hum Jhelenge... Unki Saari Sazaa Bhi...
Humne Ki... Jitni Jafaaein... Hum Unse Bhi... Ab Karenge Wafaa Bhi...
Hum Naye... Mausam Nayaa... Aalam Nayaa... Badlein Hai Armaan Bhi...
Keh Rahi... Ehsaas Ki... Gehraaiaan... Gehraa Hai... Toofaan Bhi...

Meri Duniyaa... Meri Duniyaa... Meri Duniyaa Tu Hi Re...
Meri Khushiyaan... Meri Khushiyaan... Meri Khushiyaan Tu Hi Re...
Raat Din... Tere Liye... Sajde Karoon... Duaaein Maangoo Re...
Mai Yahaan... Apne Liye... Rab Se Teri... Balaaein Maangoo Re...

( Yippie !! Yes :-) My frenz.. My world :-) Thats my life :-) )

21. What should you post this as?

Aaj Mai Boond Hoon... Boond Hoon Baarish Ki...
Aaj Mai Hoon Leher... Leher Hoon Khwaahish Ki...
Aaj Mai Aasmaan Se Aayi Hoon... Aaj Mai Dhoop Hoon...
Mai Bahaarein Laayi Hoon...
Sapno Ke Saath Mai... Rehne Lagi Hoon...
Unse Ye Baat Mai... Kehne Lagi Hoon...
Armaano Kaa Milaa... Mujhko Samandar...
Maujon Ke Saath Mai... Behne Lagi Hoon...
Aaj Mai Boond Hoon... Boond Hoon Baarish Ki...
Aaj Mai Hoon Leher... Leher Hoon Khwaahish Ki...

Aaj Aisaa Hai... Lagne Lagaa...
Soyaa Har Khwaab Jagne Lagaa...
Aaj Mai Bhi... Mehakane Lagi...
Ye Jahaan Bhi... Chamakane Lagaa...

Dil Ki Dhadkan Bhi... Woh Hai...
Teri Uljhan Bhi... Woh Hai...
Usko Sunaa De Apne... Dil Ki Sadaa...
Sapno Ke Saath Tum... Rehne Lagi Ho..
Mujhse Ye Baat Tum... Kehne Lagi Ho...
Armaano Kaa Milaa... Tumko Samandar...
Maujon Ke Saath Tum... Behne Lagi Ho...

Aaj Mai Boond Hoon... Boond Hoon Baarish Ki...
Aaj Mai Hoon Leher... Leher Hoon Khwaahish Ki...
Aaj Mai Aasmaan Se Aayi Hoon... Aaj Mai Dhoop Hoon...
Mai Bahaarein Laayi Hoon...
Sapno Ke Saath Mai... Rehne Lagi Hoon...
Unse Ye Baat Mai... Kehne Lagi Hoon...
Armaano Kaa Milaa... Mujhko Samandar...
Maujon Ke Saath Mai... Behne Lagi Hoon...
Aaj Mai Boond Hoon... Boond Hoon Baarish Ki...
Aaj Mai Hoon Leher... Leher Hoon Khwaahish Ki...

( Love this song.. :-) and hence the title to the post :-) )

22. What do you think about this tag?

Jab Bhi Choom Letaa Hoon... In Haseen Aakhon Ko...
Sau Chiraag Andhere Mein... Jhilmilaane Lagte Hai...

Phool Kyaa... Shagoofein Kyaa... Chaand Kyaa... Sitaare Kyaa...
Sab Raqeeb Kadamon Par... Sar Jhukaane Lagte Hai...
Jab Bhi Choom Letaa Hoon... In Haseen Aakhon Ko...
Sau Chiraag Andhere Mein... Jhilmilaane Lagte Hai...

Phool Khilane Lagte Hai... Ujade Ujade Gulshan Mein...
Pyaasi Pyaasi Dharti Par... Abra Chhaane Lagte Hai...
Jab Bhi Choom Letaa Hoon... In Haseen Aakhon Ko...
Sau Chiraag Andhere Mein... Jhilmilaane Lagte Hai...

Lamhe Bhar Ko Ye Duniyaa... Zulm Chhod Deti Hai...
Lamhe Bhar Ko Sab Patthar... Muskuraane Lagte Hai...
Jab Bhi Choom Letaa Hoon... In Haseen Aakhon Ko...
Sau Chiraag Andhere Mein... Jhilmilaane Lagte Hai...

( Now this one is an absolute random one.. but i love this song too :-) )

So here it was... yet another Long Post :-) from me :)

I now TAG :

Alok
Ankur
Bhai With Chai
Toonfactory
Moi

Moi !! You gotta start blogging now :)

Doing this TAG surely was fun for me... Dunno how much fun did you get out of reading this one :D

Kaun Hoon Mai !!

2008-11-04T11:06:00.004+05:30

Long absences from Blogsville surely are not appreciated by any one :D

This is one lesson I have learnt recently... Friends and Fellow bloggers who frequently visit my blog have showered enough LOVE on me :D for not being regular on my blog all these days....

I don't know what it is... confusions that have been hitting me hard recently or the boredom from my work that has encircled me completely... but something surely is bugging me enough to keep me from devoting some quality time to my blog...

Anyways... I was thinking about writing something for the "ABOUT ME" section of my blog... that I got into all this WEIRD thinking mode... and here I am !! CONFUSED once again :D

I do not know how to describe myself... I do not know if I know myself well... Well... I am not sure if I know myself at all...

All I know is that I am Nidhi... a normal girl named Nidhi... I try to find reasons to smile, from everything around me and seriously by God's grace I have managed to stay positive, calm and composed in worst of the times... I don't know if that means I am very strong ( thats what I am often told by people who know me well ) or its just that I run away from all the troubles by giving lectures on being positive and keeping hopes alive till the last moment...

I really do not know anything except... that sometimes, despite saying that I do not get hurt easily... I do get hurt... Sometimes things bother me a lot... Sometimes small things pinch me really bad... Sometimes I really don't like being all grown up and mature and handle situations gracefully... Sometimes I really want to be the baby who is unaware of all the worries and vagaries of THE BIG BAD WORLD... Sometimes I really want to sleep like a child with no tense thoughts creating a chaos inside me... Sometimes I want to be carefree...

Sometimes I really want my loved ones to hold me tightly against them and tell me that no matter what... they would always be there for me... Its not like that I doubt their love for me... But I sometimes want them to reassure me... Sometimes I want my loved ones to read me like a book... I know I can always tell them what I am feeling... that comfort level is there... but I really want them to read me sometimes...

Like everyone else, even I have met many people in my life and some of these peole have become an indispensable part of my life... and some of them have hurt me enough for the pain to last for years and years... I have often tried to overlook the pain and look towards what I have with me... but sometimes I really want to think about all the pain and think if I really deserved that... I am not complaining that its only me who has faced few hardships in life... but I am a normal human being and I do think about myself... I don't want to get hurt... I don't like it... It pains... It pains a lot...

Sometimes... just sometimes... when I share my pain with my loved ones... I don't want them to tell me that I have faced worse things in life... and that I am strong enough to hold myself... I don't want them to expect me to be strong all the time... Sometimes I really want to break down... I am no supergirl...

It was just the other day when one of my juniors of school pinged me and told me about the problems she has been facing lately.... All the time she kept telling me how could I have such a positive attitude towards life and how could I always manage to smile in tough times... I hated myself that time... For I knew, those smiles were fake... for I knew that never in my life had I felt so negative, the way I have been feeling lately...

I think of myself as a person, rather a bag full of various emotions... and I am not scared of my emotions... I don't mind laughing hard when I want to and crying out loud when I want that... When am overjoyed, I don't mind dancing like the Liril girl and when am angry, I don't mind venting out my anger in front of people... Then why am I becoming so fake now ? Why do I stay calm and take it, when someone hurts me ? Why do I find myself so tongue tied when someone treats me like a piece of crap ? Why do I think twice and check who all are there before I laugh out loud on something ? Why do I hide my tears when all I want to do is cry, cry and cry ? Why do I put up a brave front when at times I am not brave enough to take things ? Why do I find it difficult to give sarcastic replies to people who actually deserve a piece of sarcasm... ?

Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh... Like always so many WHYs again... I don't know if I will ever be able to put something in the "ABOUT ME" section of this blog.. but one thing I surely can put there is "I am simply me and I belong to the world of WHYs". Don't know how apt or correct this statement is... but this is all I can think of right now...

Off late, I have been thinking a lot about many such WHYs of MY LIFE... or WHYs of life in general... and strangely I always tend to come up with a different explaination for all these WHYs every time... Though the explainations are different every time, I don't find any explaination wrong... This makes me wonder how everything depends so much on circumstances, surroundings and the company...

I was thinking about all this last to last night when suddenly around 12:00 am, I received a message from one of my closest frenz AM.... Her msg read "Think about this... You are sitting on the stairs with me at 3 am in the midnight on the terrace of your home... Suddenly your landline phone rings and you go to attend the phone promising me that you would be back soon. The person on the other side of the phone is one of my family members giving you the creepy news that I had died the last night. I want you to tell me will you come back to me? I am expecting a reply with a strong reason for whatever your answer is"

The message sent infinite shivers down my spine and in turn I gave a good piece of my temper to AM... I simply hated the question and told her never to repeat anything like that... AM was really sorry and she was really sad for she knew she had caused pain to me unknowingly... Me, AM and SM had grown up together and had been childhood best friends... Last year we lost SM, and since then a feeling of insecurity has engulfed all of us... For no reasons I get worried about my loved ones... I am scared of losing the ones I love... I am too scared... I have lost one and I do not have it in me to let anything happen to anyone ever again... I know this goes against the laws of life but this is how I have become... I couldn't sleep after that...

While I was feeling scared and was unable to sleep, a thought creeped into my mind... I asked myself how much difference would my presence or absence make to few of my loved ones... I know it was an idiotic question... but then this question did come to my mind... May be it was the effect of that weird message and to add to it, the silence of the night, that I did something I had scolded AM for... I sent the same message to few of my closest friends (keeping AM specially out of the list ) at around 1:30 am... Once the message was sent, I knew I had made one of the biggest mistakes of my life... and I was correct... except that the mistake did bring few smiles to me along with the huge chunks of angry shots from my friends...

There were so many reactions... Every reaction, so different from each other, yet every reaction carried in itself so much of love, care and possessivenes...

NK replied back with "Aadhi raat ko kya ho gaya hai tujhe? " and followed by her reply was her call which lasted for 10 minutes and I got some of the most terrifying shots from her... After those 10 minutes, I was scared to talk to her... but I was smiling for I knew I meant a lot to her... After her initial anger attack, she got cool but didn't use any special words or soothing and calm gestures... but I could feel the warmth of love she has for me and that means so much to me...

EI, the funny idiot replied just the way I had expected him to :) "Yeah ofcourse... I will come back re... cuz even I am DEAD.... Tu DEAD to apun bhi DEAD hi hona hai na".... I know that was a stupid eply but I was touched, for reasons that are no reasons at all :)

VM and PB, THE PIDDI SAMRATS (yeah that is the new name I have for them :D ) replied asking me if I couldn't have found a better time than this hour of the day to drop a message like that... They were hell scared to get out of their beds... Whooops !! Guys puhleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee:P

NM replied "I would come back... because you coming there would also have a reason.. to know that.. I will"... My wishes, my reasons, my thoughts :) everything being important to my friends :) makes me feel on the top of the world :)

AG, my cute little brother cum friend cum my only SAHARA for tolerating crap movies in halls, replied... "First thing ! I won't believe anyone else. If you are there with me, then you are there... Second ! I would love to spend as much possible time with you, so I will come back and also because you are one of the most special person in my life"... Need I say I was touched... :)

YR is a girl of less words :) All I got from her was "Are you OK ? " She knew I wanted to talk :) but she didn't want to force me into talking to her... She knew I needed some time... and she gave me some :) she called me the next day to talk to me :) Love ya chhotu :)

SS urf fauji wrote "I'll come back because I PROMISED to come back to you. And most importantly to know that out of all your friends and family and out of your whole world why did you choose only me to come back to ? What was it that you wanted to tell me ? "..... I had a smile on my face thinking about SS :) He is not an army man but have grown up being a part of the Army clan and one thing you can always be sure of is HIS WORDS :) Once promised, he would stick to his words :) I read the message and the first thought that hit my mind was "Bola humaar fauji"... Felt good :) Felt so nice :)

MB being THE UNIQUE PIECE he has always been called me up and started asking me if I had lost it completely... I knew MB was worried about why had I sent a message like that... He was cracking those jokes and passing comments just to make sure I do not think about all that sad and heavy stuff... I didn't say it then, but would just say am proud to be your friend MB and I cherish every moment of our friendship :)

I have these messages saved on my mobile, for I know they will always bring smile to me :) and remind me of how rich I am when it comes to having a beautiful family and the most wonderful friends... I have these messages saved so that every time I read them, I realise that despite all the WHYs and confusions in LIFE, it is still BEAUTIFUL for I have infinite love, care, trust, faith and support of so many amazing people. These people make THE BIG BAD WORLD, A BIG BEAUTIFUL WORLD to live in...

Though they confuse me a lot, I am proud of all the WHYs of my life for they make me realize the value of even the smallest of all the moments of happiness and for they keep me grounded to Earth... :)

I still do not know what I am, who I am, but I know, whoever, whatever I am... I have a beautiful life and the most beautiful gifts of life in form of my friends and family :)

May be... I am.. what any person is :) because of his/her Friends and Family :)

I am NIDHI... The meaning of NIDHI is TREASURE... and I truly have my TREASURE with me in form of my family and friends who have stood by me in all my ups and downs and who have always loved me unconditionally and accepted me for who I am :)

A Weird Me And A Wonderful Weekend At Chirpy's Nest !!

2008-10-21T16:57:00.021+05:30

This is going to be a very random post... My thoughts kept jumping from one thing to other while writing this one.... moreover wrote it in two days... and since the two days were full of different emotions... the post also is going to be full of emotions and surprises :D and of course like I keep wandering here and there all the time... my thoughts too have done the same in this one :D

October 20... 3:00 p.m.

I just don't know what has happened to me... For some days I have been feeling that I am drained off all the energy and zeal in life... I so wanna smile.. wanna sing... wanna dance... but I just can't bring myself to do anything but sit quietly in my bed and stare at my laptop screen...

I am trying hard to enjoy my work, but failing miserablely from such a long time... Sometimes I feel I am just not meant to be a part of this job...

I have so many things dancing in my head off late that I feel like blogging them away everyday... but the moment I start penning down the thoughts... My thoughts betray me and start drifting in different directions...

STRANGE things keep happening every now and then... I have always had INFINITE TRUST in the word "TRUST"... and somehow I just have started feeling scared about TRUSTING people... Its not that TRUSTING people have always been wrong and painful... but off late my FAITH in this "TRUSTING" business has almost died :(

October 20... 4:30 p.m.

This weekend was one of the worst weekends for me... All alone at home... Thinking too hard about life, about people who come in your life, make a mark and stay with you forever... about people who come in your life.. stay there for sometime... and when you get used to their presence.. they just walk out... leaving you just like that... as if you never really existed... STRANGE LIFE... STRANGE RELATIONSHIPS... I thought of everything ranging from life to death... to rebirth... Whooops... Am surely going mad !!

Anyways, like I said I am really trying hard to be positive... I will try not to be very negative in this post...

I have this habit of putting a new status message on my GTalk almost everyday... Usually they are my poems... or some lines from some songs I like...

I had this status message on my Gtalk today... "Isi Umeed Pe Kaati Hai Zindagi Maine.. Wo Kaash Poochhte Ye Mujhse.. Ki Aarzoo Kya Hai.."

I was just trying hard to convince myself to work when Prats pinged me and gave me his take on this status message... Here it is... "Woh Arzoo hi kya jo sirf umeed ban kar rah gayi, Arzoo to woh hai jo ragon main bahi, Zindagi ki kitaab main kabhi na mitne wala Nishaan kar gayi"

I just loved this line :) Felt strong , felt re-energized and rejuvenated for some time :) Thanks Prats :)

October 20... 5:15 p.m.

Chirpy told me that she is tired of my CRYBABY posts and threatened me that she won't ever visit my blog if I do not stop sounding so low in my posts... So here it is baby... Just for you :) The story of the wonderful weekend I had with you and "My Darling Aadha" :) (Am Chirpy's hubby's Aadhi and he is my darling Aadha :D , Chirpy !! Himmat hai to aa Pune ladne k liye :D )

Before I start, there is one thing I wanted to say from a long time... THANKS for being there :) I won't give you all the reasons for I know you know why it came :)

Hmmm... so since last weekend was a bad one... I will rather write about last to last weekend...

I went to Mumbai to spend the weekend with Chirpy and Andy ( My Darling Aadha ;) ) I had met Andy for the first time... It was Friday night and Andy came back home from work... After exchanging hi hellos, we just sat there in the lobby watching TV and talking to each other... I wasn't talking much, for he was really tired and ofcourse it was our first meeting and I had no intentions of killing him with my Non Stop Chattering :D

It was a matter of few minutes and I felt as if I had known Andy the way I had known Chirpy :) ...for years :) He is a sweetheart who really made me feel at ease :) Knowing, that I were really confused about a lot many things in life... Chirpy and Andy made things easy for me... talked to me about everything and gave me some really nice insights on how life really is :)

Anyways... I had met Chirpy after 3 years , so had lots to catch up on :) ( Waise we discuss almost everything over Gtalk only, still meeting her in person after a long time was a wonderful feeling ) Me and Chirpy did our graduation from the same college, we had just exchanged hi hellos in our college years... It was December of last year when she caught me on GTalk and rest is history :) I found my sister , my friend and ofcourse my critic in her :)

Hmm.... so where was I ?

We spoke for hours :) and then finally went to sleep :) Next day, I was supposed to meet few friends in the evening...

We wake up in the morning and started talking again :D Made some nice breakfast ( MAGGI ROCKS !! ) njoyed it :) Andy had some work to finish... So me and Chirpy left for DMart to buy some household stuff... By the time we reached home, it was time to prepare the lunch...

We enjoyed lunch sitting in front of the TV... commenting on almost everything :) After yet another chat session of around 2 hours :D we decided, it was time for me to get ready so that I could meet my friends on time... I hate to be late...

By the time I came back home... it was almost 11pm... and thats when we decided that we were in no mood to sleep :D , So me, Chirpy and Andy took out a Snakes and Ladders and Ludo board and started playing the games :D

It was nice to play the games I used to play in my childhood :)

We started with playing Ludo and the next 1:30 hours were hillarious.... We 3 lost our minds and laughed hysterically... The game never was so much of fun :) I was genuinelly reliving my childhood days with two equally devilish people :D

My Aadha was caught in an emotional turmoil :D Whom should hi help in the game :D "Bhayanak Gharwali Chirpy" or "Darling Aadhi Me" :D

He chose a safe path and helped us alternately :D Lucky Andy ;)

As if 2 games of Ludo were not enough, we took out Snakes And Ladders board and started playing the game... We were laughing like anything for there was one snake who actually seemed to have fallen in love with Chirpy and took her back to the lower levels again and again :D

Luckily... Chirpy won the game of Ludo and also the first game of Snakes and Ladders...

2nd game surely was the funniest of all for Chirpy again was playing lady love to a snake on teh upper half of the board and Me and Aadha were playing love interest to 2 snakes on the lower half of the board...

After an hour of dancing around the same numbers on the board, finally Chirpy won again :D leaving me and Andy on the same level... dancing around the same numbers for next 10 minutes :D

That is when Andy realised his "Janam Janam Ka Rishtaa" with Chirpy and left me there only :( He also reached the top of the board leaving me alone to fight the BAD SNAKE :((( (Uaaaaaaaaan Uaaaaaaaaaan Uaaaaaaaaan )

And there I was :D "THE LOSER" :D

Never had I known that losing a game could be so much of fun :)

So many hours of sheer madness, and then we realized that rest of the world ( unlike us ) sleeps at that hour of the day... actually night :D and so we also decided to go and give our notorious brains some rest :D

It was around 3 in the night by the time we went to our rooms for giving ourselves some rest :)

Next morning was a lazy one... Andy and Chirpy got up little late... and me being the weird creature :D was already up by 6 am... ( Oh yeah.. I have this problem :D I can't sleep for long :D and whatever be the case... I usually am up by 6 am :D )

By the time Andy and Chirpy managed to stand properly :D it was almost 9 am and we could feel our stomachs begging us to feed them with something :D

The cook in Chirpy took over and she experimented with some kind of Dhokla mixture... which actually turned out to be NICE :D

I had to meet some people for lunch and hence I left for the venue.... I was planning to leave for Pune from there only, but fun at Chirpy and Andy's kept me from leaving on Sunday :)

I was back at Chirpy's by 5 pm and was really tired by the time I reached their place... Chirpy understood that I needed some rest and let me take a nap for sometime...

After around an hour or so... Chirpy asked me if I wuld like to bake a cake for her and Andy... I were all giggly and bubbly by then :D

I gave her the list of the ingredients I would be needing and there started a funny story again :D We discussed various kind of cakes we had baked so far and how many of them had actually turned out to be nice and how many actually were disasters :D

While I being the GUEST at Chirpy's should have been treated with respect, CHIRPY MADE ME WORK.... She made me bake cake for her and went off to watch TV with MY AADHA :(

Poor me started preparing the batter for the cake.... See... I've got the proofs....

While DEVIL CHIRPY came into the kitchen at regular intervals to check on me... she binged on the tasty batter and got herself clicked as if she was the one doing the hard work :P DEVIL CHIRPY... BAD CHIRPY :P

Poor me baked the cake.... It was my 1st experience of baking a cake in a Microwave... am more used to bake cakes in OTGs.... The cake turned out to be really nice.... except it could have been better, had I known how to bake cakes in a Microwave.... so next thing on my list now a days is to learn about baking cakes in a Microwave :)

All done after baking the cake, I took a break and dumped myself onto the WOW bean bag in the lobby :) Oh ! I love bean bags :D They are so comforting :)

By dinner time, Andy's friends joined us and we played SCRABBLE for around 1:30 hours :) While playing the game of words, we enjoyed the cake :) and thankfully everyone liked the cake :)

After the game, we took our dinner and chatted for some more time and then retired to our beds, for the next morning were supposed to be the "Monday Blues" morning :(

I leftfor Pune the next morning... almost taking a decision that of all the places in this world, one place I wanna be in is Mumbai :)

Aamchi Mumbai, Maajhi Mumbai, Meri Mumbai :) Mumbai Meri Jaan :)

Am in love with the city.... for infinite reasons and icing on the cake is that all my family and closest frenz also are in Mumbai :) I love being in Mumbai :) I naturally feel happy and confident while am there :)

So, wait till am back :) I will be back soon... in Mumbai :)

Love ya Chirpy and Andy for making the weekend so special for me :) for making me feel so nice :) and yeah Chirpy !! I will help you with your shopping as soon we are back from our Diwali holidays :)

Thanks STAR !!

2008-10-14T17:19:00.003+05:30

You did it yet again :)

Thanks a lot my Star :)

You got your name from today's day... Sharad Poornima :)

Many Many Happy Returns Of The Day :)

Be happy wherever you are :)

Can't wish for anything else but this.... Wherever you are... whoever you are now... whosoever you are with... Be my STAR forever and always :)

Missing you loads and loads...

Happy Birthday STAR !!

Happy Budday !!

2008-10-13T14:57:00.009+05:30

6:45 am , 13th Oct 1986...

I were 2.5 years old... I were crying badly and desperately wanted to see my mother... She was in pain...

I hated the devil who was causing her the pain... I knew a devil was to come soon...

7:01 am.... and the devil arrived on Earth...

The devil looked more like an angel... Soft skin... Innocent eyes ( they were closed :D ) a pleasant smile on his face... I don't know why but I loved the way he looked... He had tiny fingers, small eyes... Well ! The devil looked more like a tiny angel wrapped up in a soft sheet...

He had rosy pink cheeks...

When he had not come... I wanted to beat him for he was causing pain to my mom... for he made it difficult for my mom to hold me in her arms... Ohh ! how I hated him so much....

And when dad asked me to hold the devil in my arms... I fell in love with him... Devil no longer looked like a devil to me... He was the most beautiful gift of life to me :)

Its been so many years... My gift still means the world to me... He is my precious possession... I don't know if I would ever be able to tell him how much he means to me... I love him a lot... a lot more than words can say... a lot more than I can ever express...

Thanks maa and paa for giving me the most beautiful gift of my life :)

The miracle of life... a baby brother :)

I loved every moment of growing up with you my love... You mean the world to me :)

All these years have been so beautiful, for you've always been there for me :) , for you've always given me reasons to smile and reasons to be proud :)

I love you so much for so many reasons and yet I love you for no reasons at all... You bring joy to me... You don't say it often, but I can feel the love you have for me... I can feel the warmth of your love :)

I know you have grown up and you've become a big guy now :) but trust me.. I still love to hold your hand and tell you things... I still love to make you lie down in my lap... I still love to buy things for you... I still love to help you take a decision... I still love to play snakes and ladders with you... and yeah... I still feel like getting into a pillow fight with you :)

And today on your birthday... all I have for you is loads and loads of wishes :)

May you get everything that you've ever wished for... :)

Many Many Happy Returns Of The Day !!

I Love You A Lot :)

Happy Birthday !! :)

P.S. My bro's name is Nikhil :), Prats reminded me that I forgot to mention his name in the post :D

Going Insane ???

2008-10-13T14:40:00.002+05:30

Keeping A Smile On Your Face, When Inside You Feel Like Dying, For The Sake Of Supporting Others.... Means STRENGTH

Long back, I had read this line somewhere and I have somehow always believed in this...

Have been able to be strong so far... I have managed to smile regardless of the odds against me... I have managed to stand for what I believe in... I have manged to survive the pressure that almost tore my resistance...

Now... I am tired... I want to cry out loud... and my tears are failing me... I want to scream... my voice is betraying me... I wanna be alone for some time... Solitude is avoiding me... I just don't want anyone around me... No friends... No family... I want to go away from everyone... Far far away...

I was told once...

To The Question Of Your Life, You Are The Only Answer... To The Problems Of Your Life, You Are The Only Solution....

Is it ? All I can see is that I myself am a PROBLEM... I don't see any solution....

Am I going Insane ?

I Dunno What It Is !!

2008-10-07T15:33:00.006+05:30

My friends and family call me a Fighter... They always tell me that I have this positive attitude towards life and that I don't give up easily... That is something they identify me with...

Even I have known myself as one of those people who fight life instead of running away from problems... But I am tired now... Nothing seems to work well... Everything I do... It fails... Anything I want... I won't get it easily... Forget easily... I don't get it only... I am so scared now... of losing all that I have... of being left alone among the strangers in this strange world...

Somehow I have started feeling that I am a loser...

I am tired of being strong...

I know its just a phase... I know I will be fine in some time... but for now, I can't think of anything else but my hard luck...

My Star !! Give me the strength I need... I really need it right now... and no one else but you only know how badly do I need it right now...

I don't like myself like this... I have not learnt to go weak... I don't identify with the Nidhi I have been all these years....

I want to fight back and find a way again...

Please don't leave any comment on this one... I just needed to talk to someone who won't judge me by my words right now... and no one else but my blog seems perfect to me right now...

S.E.C.R.E.T. !!

2008-10-06T14:53:00.002+05:30

For some reasons, this dialogue from the movie Titanic is very close to my heart... I somehow can relate to it so much...

"A woman's heart is a deep ocean of secrets"

I don't want to explain anything right now... but I would like to know your take on this...

Lemme know what you feel about it...

Jeenaa Isi Kaa Naam Hai !!

2008-09-29T13:24:00.012+05:30

I was really excited about this weekend. I was supposed to meet Chirpy after years and spend some quality time with her... I were to meet Sahil and Arjun, two of my closest friends and ofcourse very important people in my life... I was supposed to meet Saket, who again happens to be a very good friend... I was to take my sister shopping and help her with packing for her friend's wedding...

I was really looking forward to a wonderful weekend with the people who are close to my heart... who have got a special place in my life...

Thinking about the beautiful moments I have had with all of them in the past and about the wonderful moments I would be spending with them over the weekend, I packed my stuff and left for Mumbai on Saturday morning.

Lady Luck had something else for me in her bucket... Before I could realize what it was, I slipped from the stairs and almost cried because of the pain in my ankle. After some 10 minutes I were fine but kept getting little pangs of pain every now and then. Looking at the bag in my hands, I realized, if I would over exert myself ( which had to happen in Mumbai, as I had to meet so many friends of mine ), the pain will only increase.... and poor me went back to my flat and canceled my plan of going to Mumbai.

I was thinking about my failed plans when Chirpy messaged to ask me if I had left Pune... I informed her and others that I won't be able to make it to Mumbai this weekend.

My mood was spoilt... I have somehow learnt to cover up pain and disappointment with smiles... but still there are times when I really fail to do so. It was one of those times...

At times, I love being alone... solitude becomes my best friend... thats the time I spend with myself and try to know my life little better... but then there are times when being alone scares me... I didn't want to be alone this weekend...

Anyways, may be to cover up the pain or disappointment or boredom, whatever it was, I started watching movies on my laptop. I ended up watching 3 movies this weekend.

Sunday turned out to be nothing special, but then I couldn't take it anymore and decided to make Sunday little special for myself. I went to the market and bought a new sketchbook for myself. I am planning to start sketching again... I ll soon make a new sketch and post it on my blog. Meanwhile I have just got two of my sketches scanned at the moment, and here I am sharing them with you all.

Am really excited about starting sketching again.

I decided to cook something nice for my roomies for dinner and made spinach corn rice balls for them. By the time I were done with the cooking, it was almost 9 pm.

Back in my hometown, everytime mom tries a new recipe, she either invites neighbours to taste it or sends some to their places. Its a small thing but it kind of makes us all feel like a big family living under the same roof. Growing up in an atmosphere like that, I find it very strange when in most of the other cities, people do not have a clue who stays next door, despite of living there for years...

I have been lucky that ways, both my neighbours happen to be real nice and helping people. I took 2 bowls and kept few spinach corn balls in them and took them to my neighbours. Just told them that I was trying a new recipe and thought of sharing that with them. Never did I know that it would make them feel so nice, they really liked my gesture, and fortunately they liked the spinach corn balls too :)

Yippieeeeeeee !! finally I got something to smile about :) For around half an hour I discussed the recipe with both my neighbours and happily came back to my appartment :), cleaned the kitchen and peacefully went back to my room :)

Ohh yeah !! Cooking genuinely gives me peace, happiness, smile and ofcourse confidence :)

Tired after the whole thing, I went to bed. I wasn't feeling very sleepy... Getting restless, I was thinking of doing some thing when I statred playing the title track of F.R.I.E.N.D.S on my laptop.

It starts with the line "So, no one told you life was gonna be this way"...

This line kinda did something to me... I just stopped the song there only and started thinking about life, relationships, happiness, satisfaction and what not...

Yeah !! So true.... no one really had told me life is like that...

You meet people, you like some, you love some, you hate some....

Why despite of spending years with someone, we sometimes feel we hardly know the person... why at times a few hours together give you the feeling that you've been knowing each other from ages...

Why sometimes we end up hurting people when we don't want to... Why sometimes we end up getting hurt cuz of smallest of things... Why sometimes we have to think before talking to a person who knows us inside out... Why sometimes we can't understand the person who means so much to us...

Why sometimes, the one we expect to understand us the most doesn't understand us at all? Why sometimes we don't understand our loved ones when they wants us to ?

Why can't there be smiling faces everywhere... Why do we hold grudges... Why are we scared of saying sorry ? Why sometimes we are able to hold our tears despite facing the biggest of the pains in life and why sometimes a small thing makes us cry so badly ?

Why can't we be happy with what we have in life and not expect for more all the time... Why many of us are never content in life ? Why do we complicate the simplest of things ? Why even after knowing all the emotions, we can't handle them perfectly well ?

Why do we want to be alone when we are surrounded by people and why do we feel like being with people when we are all alone ?

With all these and many more WHYs dancing in my head, I turned the lights off and closed my eyes... After about an hour, the battle of my thoughts came took a pause when I received a call from a friend...

I spoke to my friend for sometime and then hung up... I went to the balcony and stood there for hours... looking at the sky... searching for my star...

Long back, a friend had told me that each of us have one star assigned to us in the sky... We need to faithfully search for our star and then its each to become friend with our star.

And there it was, shining brightly, looking lovingly towards me, soothing me with its calmness... telling me that life has to be like this... If it won't be... there won't be any excitement left... There won't be any surprises, there won't be so many things to explore..

It told me to accept life the way it is and fight it when it play games, to be friends when it embraces me... to hold its hands when it offers one...

I smiled... looked at my star and told him to be there for me forever and always just the way he has been there for me till now... wishing the best for me and helping me grow up every single moment of my life :)

I didn't thank him and won't do that in future too... for I know, he is my star... All mine :)

I went to bed at 3 am in the morning... and woke up at around 5... Though 2 hours of sleep would have left me grumpy on a regular day, today I was feeling fresh and rejuvenated :)

Often week starts with Monday Blues... but I am looking forward to a beautiful week ahead :) and am sure I will find some reason to smile throughout the day :)

Oh yeah... I just wanted to thank God for blessing me with the most wonderful people in my life :)

Thank you Bhagwan Ji :) for everything :)

Oops !! I did it again !!

2008-09-23T15:22:00.003+05:30

Awwwww Awwwww Awwwww Awwwww Awwwww

I need to hide myself somewhere...

Is it just my luck or it was Chirpy's curse that worked this time...

My flat is on the 9th floor. Every morning I leave for my office, dressed in fomals, with my laptop, handbag and a lunch box.

Today, I got up little late, just to realize that I was in no mood to go on work :( But then, I ain't lucky enough to wish for an off and getting one too :D

Anyways, I escaped preparing my lunch and got ready for the office...

I usually do not use the lift and prefer using stairs...

Few times, I have accompanied my roomies in the lift. One of my roomies being very naughty, usually presses the keys for all the floors when she gets out of the lift...and luckily, she has never been caught till date...

Now..Since I was already late for my office, I rushed and got into the lift. The lift had reached 8th floor, and I had nothing better to do when suddenly "The Real Nids" came into being and there I went :D pressing the keys for all the floors one after the other, as soon as I reached the ground floor.

Over confident that I was..I was so sure that I won't find anyone on the ground floor...and happily looking at the keys for all the floors and laughing hard on the poor fellow who was to bear the brunt of my deeds, I walked out of the lift just to collide with this really handsome guy who stays in my building...

Obviously in no time he realized what I had done.... and gave me a smile, that I won't ever forget :(

Awwwwwwwwww !! I can't forget that look in his eyes :(( I was so embarassed.... :((

Why me O lord !! I mean couldn’t you have sent some senses in my head..or better…couldn’t u have sent him in the lift at the 9th floor itself….

I need to hide myself somewhere... and I am going to award myself today...I actually deserve this one...

From now onwards I will call myself "The Queen of Mishaps"...

Awwww :((((

P.S. Special thanks to Richa and Chirpy for helping me with the editing of this post :)

TAG TAG TAG !!

2008-09-22T17:12:00.002+05:30

This is for all the wonderful visitors on my blog :)

I TAG you all. Please go through the post "HERO" and take the TAG.

It definitely will bring a smile on your face and your posts surely will spread those smiles among many more :)

I am waiting for all the TAG posts now :)

And yeah one rule !!

Once you are done with your TAG post... Drop a comment that you ve taken the TAG :) This will help me go through the posts of some new fellow bloggers who would be visiting the blog and who would be taking the TAG :)

I am waiting :)

"HERO"

2008-09-19T18:39:00.004+05:30

I have been tagged by Bhai.

Its not a proper tag, but I took it as one... Its related to an activity Bhai had in her management class. Her teacher wrote down these 26 values on the blackboard and everyone in the class had to choose one and then had to narrate and experience depicting that value...

The values listed were :

1. Respect
2. Flexibility
3. Love
4. Trust
5. Confidence
6. Generosity
7. Mercy
8. Obedience
9. Patience
10. Caring
11. Assertiveness
12. Forgiveness
13. Excellence
14. Responsibility
15. Orderliness
16. Justice
17. Enthusiasm
18. Honesty
19. Peace
20. Creativity
21. Honor
22. Self - discipline
23. Humility
24. Reliablility
25. Detatchment
26. Unity

Narrating this activity incident on her blog, Bhai kinda tagged all the readers... Everyone had to choose one of the values and narrate an incident from their lives which would depict one of these values....

I read her post and decided to take the TAG. I was on my way to Mumbai in the train , when I was thinking about all these values and incidents in my life... speaking about presence of some of the values from the list... While I were busy thinking, I realized Bandra Terminus station was to come in next half an hour...

This time I was traveling with my mom and probably that is why it turned out to be a nice journey.... Mom surely is my lucky charm :)

No mishaps during the journey, and trust me thats a real big achievement for me :)

Anyways, once we got down at Bandra Terminus, me and mom were wondering how to take all our bags to the taxi stand as there weren't many coolies on the station that day... Since I had returned after a long break from my job, I had lotsa stuff wimme and it wasn't possible for me and mom to carry all the bags to the stand on our own...

I told mom to stand there with the bags, meanwhile I thought of going little ahead to look for a coolie...

Thats when I saw him... He was a dark and lean boy... aged 10 or 11 years... Holding his hand, was a little boy of around 6 years of age... He came running towards me and thats how the conversation started :

HE : Didi ! Mai lega saaraa saamaan... Aapko baahar jaaneka hai na... Aap mere ko 30 rupya de dena..

( I will take all the luggage... You have to go outside the station.. Right ? You pay me Rs. 30 for that )

Me : Nahin beta... Kaafi bhaari saamaan hai... Aap rehne do...

( Its quite heavy.. You better leave it )

He : Arrey aap chhodo.. chinta mat karo... mai le lega sab kuchh...

(Hey ! Don't you worry... I wil take all the luggage )

He asked his younger brother to stand aside and tried to take the bags from my and mom's hands...

I had to forcefully push him back and had to tell him that I didn't want him to take the bags... Major reason was I didn't want a child to work and second even if I would let him do so... I had a feeling that he wouldn't be able to take so much of load...

For a moment, he stood still and then spranged back to action... He asked me to give him Rs. 25 only but let him tke the baggages...

Thats when I offered him a Rs. 50 note and asked him to get something for himself and his brother to eat....

I never realised, I was to get one of the biggest lessons of my life that day.... He looked at me for a moment... and then looked at his younger brother... He looked at my mom and then turned to me...

HE : Mere ko mehnat ka paisa chahiye... aise nahin lega mai... Didi !! Aap mere ko saamaan lene do na...

I just had realised what was self respect in true sense... I signalled mom to give him a chance... Mom took a bag... I took a trolley bag... His baby bro took a small handbag... and the HERO (yeah I will call him Hero henceforth cuz in true sense he was The Hero for me :) ) took a suitcase with wheels and one more bag.

We all walked towards the taxi stand... He kept walking without stopping for a second... He manged to hold his brother's hand, while carrying the bags... I was amazed... at his strength ( inner strength , it takes a lot to be so determined ), at his sense of responsibility... and what not...

He left us at the taxi stand and I offered him Rs. 50... He tried giving me the change , when I told him to keep it with him... not because he needed money but because he deserved to be appreciated for the way he had dealt with the situation.

He politely said..

Didi ! Mehnat ka 30 hi pachega...

( Money I ve earned through my hard work only would suit me... )

Me and mom were shocked and we were proud :)

There he was :) The child of India who was not a child anymore...

He had grown up... little too early for his age... It was his age to learn lessons... but he was teaching lessons unknowingly to so many people like me...

All I could do was to put my hand on his head and tell him that I will try to be like him.... He happily looked at me... took hold of his brother's hand... and there he went.... I kept looking at him till my eyes could follow him....

Without turning back, he became a part of the crowd... and I couldn't see him any more... yet I could see him smiling at people like us...

I don't know what value does this incident depicts... to me it taught me almost everything....

It taught me to RESPECT the fact that Great men can come from anywhere... It taught me to RESPECT that cute little fellow, who I am sure will make it big one day :)

I don't know about anyone else... but I have all my wishes for him.... May be thats all I can give him...

He taught me what LOVE is.... Not for a moment did he let his brother go off his eyes...

He taught me to TRUST one's instincts... to TRUST oneself...

He taught me that real CONFIDENCE was the words that came out of his mouth :)

I could see his younger brother doing things that he asked him to... They talked with their eyes... I could see what CARE is.... I could see what RESPONSIBILITY is....

I could see the EXCELLENCE in one's CHARACTER.... I could see the genuine happiness on his face when he took that money from me after his hard work.... I could see the PEACE on his face....

Need I give a better example for any of these values ???

This happened to me right when I was thinking about an incident... Life is like that...

I salute you Little HERO :)

You deserve it :)

Back !!

2008-09-17T13:50:00.004+05:30

Back in Pune !!

Back in Hell !!

Yeah Yeah !! I really tried not to call it a hell but IT IS.... Its hardly been a day since I have reached Pune.... and troubles have started pouring in :((

Yuck Pune !!

Bad Pune !!

I don't like Pune....

Mujhe waapis ghar jaana haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..........

Michhami Dukkadam !!

2008-09-05T01:45:00.002+05:30

Like they have Thanksgiving in USA for thanking the loved ones who have touched their lives.. We Jainies have a "Khamat Khaamnaa Divas" once in a year. This day is celebrated as an opportunity to apologize to your loved ones for all the hurts and pains you've caused them knowingly or unknowingly.

Today is "Khamat Khaamnaa Divas", so I take the opportunity to apologize to all the people I've ever come across in my life, if I have ever hurt them knowingly or unknowingly.

A special sorry to Paa for I know he doesn't like my raising my voice when he is angry and I did exactly the same today. I am really sorry Paa... I love you a lot and this guilt feeling is killing me :(

Though I've apologized to you, but deep down I know I ve hurt you with my rude words. I never intended to do so. Please forgive me for all the wrongs I have ever said and done and specially for the ones I blurt out today..

All I want from you is to please understand that we have different ways of looking at life. I know I haven't seen much of this world, but of all that I've seen and lived with, I've learnt my lessons and I will always learn from my mistakes... I just don't want to miss out on the opportunity to committ mistakes... I love exploring life on my own... I want to carve path for myself.. I don't like to follow the already travelled path... I can take your suggestions, but only if I relate myself to them. Give me a chance to deal with life on my own. Just walk with me to make me stand up again every time I fall... I love you Paa.. Love you a lot.

There are so many people in my life woh have made it so beautiful and I being the jerk I am... have hurt them many a times... Am sorry for all those times when I have been an impossible idiot..

If I will start saying sorry to all of them in this post, my blog would run out of space :D , but all I can do is to apologize specially to few of those people who have touched my life in ways no body else have and who have been with me in times when the rest of the world turned their backs on me...

I am sorry Moi, for being harsh, for being unreasonable, for being rude and above all for hurting you. You mean a lot to me... A lot more than I can ever say or show... Forgive me.

I am sorry Maa, for not being there with you all the time and for being rude to you so many times... But then there is no one else who knows me the way you do cuz I don;t share myself with anyone the way I do it with you :) And I love being your friend... you best friend :) and am lucky to have you as my Bestest Friend :) I love you a lot Maa....

I am sorry Sonu... I know I have been a bad sister to you... But trust me baby, all I wished was your good and nothing else... And elder sisters sometimes have to be strict.... You're my priceless possession... You make my world beautiful with your presence... I love you chhota baby.... And am sorry.... I promise to be there for you... forever and always....

I am sorry Rishu, for not being there for you all these years... But now that you've finally started to share things, I promise to be there for you always... Love you loads my lil bro :)

And a sorry for the one who has gone far far away, but will always be there in my life... Am sorry, for not being there when I should have been... Won't say anything else.... I miss you... Miss you a lot.... Be happy wherever you are... in whichever world you are...

Anyways, coming back to the "Khamat Khaamnaa" thing, we say "Khamaaoo Saa" or "Michhami Dukkadam" to apologize and thats how this post got its title.

So a "Michhami Dukkadam" to you all... So is saal ki sab galtiyo ke stock ke liye... Here comes a collective Sorry and aaj se naya account shuru ;)

Njoi :)

Bhooli Bisri Yaadein... Kuchh Bachpan Ki... Kuchh Jeevan Ki...

2008-08-27T16:27:00.005+05:30

I was in Jodhpur from past 3 days... Its around 75 kms. from my hometown... Had been there to meet bade papa and to teach badi maa how to make different types of salads and soups... Just that I love salads and soups and hence I know quite a lot of recipes...

While I were on my way to Jodhpur, I saw thousands of people walking with a shoulder bag and a 7 coloured flag in their hands... All these people were going to Ramdevra to attend Ramdevra Fair.

The Ramdevra Fair is held in Ramdevra village in Jaisalmer in August or September. The village has got its name after Baba Ramdev, a Tanwar Rajput, who took samadhi in 1458. He had miraculous powers and legend goes that five peers from Mecca came to test his powers. After being convinced, they paid homage to him. The Hindus regard him as an incarnation of Lord Krishna. A large fair is held here which is attended by lakhs of devotees who come in large groups from various places. Bhajans and kirtans right through the night are organized.

I salute the FAITH these people live with... I genuinely respect the fact that they believe so firmly on something... I appreciate that through out that 75 km long stretch, there were big stalls at every 10 meters... to serve these devotees with tea, coffee, food, first aid etc. I appreciate that people had sponsored T- shirts, Dhotis, Flags, Bags, Torches for all these devotees... I admire how people served the walking devotees...

I genuinely appreciate everything about all this blind faith in babaji and undying devotion of these devotees... But what I would never appreciate or understand is, how a big businessman doesn't think twice before sponsoring all such t-shirts and stuff for the devotees and thinks a lakh times to sponsor a poor kid's education...

How can people donate crores of Rupees for building so many temples and give no help when it comes to building the temple of learning... SCHOOLS, COLLEGES.... There are around 1000 small and big temples in my hometown and merely 3 colleges... which are nothing less than weird buildings with no facilities... no faculty...

Of what I have learnt till date, God is omnipresent.... Then why do we need to create so many homes for him and no home for learning....

I were a kid when I had read this doha by Kabir, which I still firmly believe in...

Guru Gobing Dou Khade, Kaake Laagu Paay,
Balihaari Guru Aapne, Goving Diyo Bataay...

It says, when both, my teacher and God are standing in front of me, who should I pay more respect to by touching his feet first.... I shall do that to my teacher for he is the one who introducec me to god and his creation...

When we all know how important education is, why do we hesitate spending money on education and what exactly is it that we do not think twice before spending money on the name of God...

I am not against the money spent on the name of God... May be I am not intelligent enough to understand the way society and devotion for God and money works together.... but of all the things I have learnt and realized so far... I genuinely feel the need for education is lot higher than the need to make temples all over the city...

I am not very religious.... my idea of devotion and religion is just having faith in the supreme power and working to the best of my abilities so that God doesn't mind blessing me with the best... But for that I need to work... I need to give my best shot... He helps those, who helps themselves... Probably such strong views keep me from understanding the need to make so many temples and spending so much on the name of God... I don't see the need to donate 5 lakh rupees just to keep a DIYA going on for a month on the name of some God...

Anyways... those are just my views, no force on anmyone to agree with me... but I thoroughly believe.... what we need at this point of time is temples of learnings.... money for schools, colleges.... rather than temples for Lord Krishna , Rama, Mahaveera, Buddha , Vishnu or any other god for that matter....

I spent 3 days in Jodhpur and on my way back, I got to meet a relative of mine. Her daughter was also with us and she was a 11 year old sweet kid, very talkative and very expressive... Through out the journey from Jodpur to Pali, she didn't keep shut for even a single second.... But whatever she said... got me into thinking about so many things.... Her mom was telling her how I used to top my class and all the competitions when I were a kid and how I used to play harmonium, tabla and sing... Thats when the kid started asking me questions, I had no answer to....

Kid : Didi !! Aap abhi aapne new cards banaye hai kya ? Will you show them to me ?

Me : A big smile on my face... and no words....

(So true... I always used to make greeting cards for everyone... I loved giving that personal touch to things... Its been years I haven't made any greeting card for anyone... )

Kid : Will you teach me how to play harmonium and tabla and how to sing patriotic songs

Me : A Forced smile yet again...

(I myself seem to have forgotten all that I had learnt... Its been 9 years, I haven't done any riyaaz or played my tabla or harmonium....)

Kid : Di ! You know swimming na... My skin is getting dark because of swimming... How did you manage?

Me : Use a sunscreen half an hour before you get into the water....

(Did I tell her that I miss my swimming and badminton sessions so badly.... its been such a long time.... I loved playing badminton, table tennis... I loved to swim....)

Kid : You have a diary of all the songs you've learnt na ? Will you show it to me?

Me : Sure :)

(Can I ? All I know is that I have kept that diary in my cupboard.. but I haven't opened it in ages...)

Kid : I love to play Sattoliya and Cricket with my colony friends... What all did you play ?

Me : I too played all these games....

( I.... I... Ummm... Aaaaa... I think I play "Tap Your Fingers On The Idiot Box" all the time with my laptop... Was it really me few years back, who loved to play Sattoliya and Cricket.... who was the leader of the pranksters of the colony...)

Kid : You know I have got 3 puppies at myt place.. I play with them everyday...

Me : Ohh... when I were of your age, I was famous for giving shelter to all the stray dogs in my house... how my parents and grandparents used to laugh, when I brought home every puppy I saw in the streets, how I used to give away all my halwa to the mother of the puppies... How I had once taken out all the icecream from the refrigerator and gave it to the stray dogs in the street.... How I had a special name for every dog.... Sheru, Kaalu, Tommy, Tuffy, Bow Wow and so many more :)

( I don't know when was the last time I actually ran after a puppy or a kitten or brought some food for it from home and played with it for hours )

Kid : Di ! You know we collected money from all the uncles and aunties and celebrated Janmashtmi in the colony... You also do that na?

Me : I used to (And that fake smile again )

( Do I.... ? I used to... :) I was one of the initiators.. the dare devil :) But now... Am all busy with my work... Work !! Or is it just something everyone is doing and hence I too an following the trend ? )

Kid : Mom told me you know how to make soft toys and you also paint... Will you teach me?

Me : Ofcourse ( A confused smile on my face)

( Will I.... Argh,,,, Ummm.... Seems I myself have forgotten all that cuz I haven't done any of those things in years....)

Kid : Di ! You look so much like my Sweety didi... she also goes to office everyday... She also doesn't comefor all the family functions... says she does not get so many leaves... She also wears a jeans and a kurta like you... I love to dress up... I love to wear bangles, earrings, apply make up, go to every function...

Me : Even I used to when I were of your age :) ( Am I really that old ?? )

( Do I really enjoy being wit the crowd now ? Am I getting to0 used to be alone or with the selected group of friends I have ?? Since when did I start having problem with being a part of the general crowd... Once upon a time... I used to be one of them.. and even today I am one of them... then why this ?? Why do I enjoy solitude or spending time on a laptop than going out and meeting all those old relatives who comment on everything under the sun )

Our conversation never stopped....

There is this place called Rohat, between Pali and Jodhpur which is famous for its Mirhiwadas and Kachoris.... That guy had started with a small shop... I don't know if I should call it a shop... it was more of a THADI... and he is a millionaire now....

He is now a millionaire and he still wears the same khadi clothes and makes Kachoris and Mirchiwadas with his own hands...

The moment I got down to get some for all of us... He recognized me... "Arrey Beta !! Bahut din baad dekha aapko... Doctor Saahab ( My father ) kahan hai ? Aap to bade ho gaye beta ji... Bolo kitne piece pack karu aapke liye... Arrey aap mujhe pehchaane na ?"

( Hey Kid !! Saw you after sucha long time... Where is your father.... You ve grown up... How many pieces should I pack for you... Ohh !! Did you recognize me ? )

I gave him a smile... and said ofcourse I remember him, I have grown up enjoying his mirchiwadas and kachoris...

Once back in car, I was forcd to think... how many people do I really remember from my childhood... on how many of them do I shower that genuine smile full of happiness on seeing them... Am I that rude ? I don't think so.. but then why this weird guilt feeling ??

I don't know what it was... but I kept thinking for hours... hours and hours... even after reaching home....

What is it that I am running after.... What do I really want from my life.... Is this the Life I always wanted ?

So many questions.... Many of them will always remain unanswered and many answers would change with time, according to circumstances :)

Not that life today ain't beautiful... it is... it indeed is... in its own special ways... but I do miss being a kid... I do miss the years of my growing up... I miss a lot many things...

Hoping.. I will realise one day... what I want from life... and what is life :)

Ek Mahal... Sapno Ka...

2008-08-21T00:02:00.004+05:30

Being home after a long time surely does keep you busy :) There's so much I've done in these 10 days and yet there's so much left to do, that I genuinelly feel the next 20 days at home won't be enough :(

With our new home reaching its final stages of construction, it needs undivided attention and lots of thinking to get the desired look... How I wish I should have gone ahead with an achitecture and interior decoration degree after finishing my schooling... I were 6th rank holder in the state for architecture and interior decorations course's entrance exams... But then destiny had different plans for me and I ended up becoming an idiot box lover...

Yeah !! As Richa mentioned in her blog that the definition of Idiot box has changed over the years and specially for the so called computer engineers :) The Idiot Box for us is nothing but our computers and laptops :)

Anyways, whats gone can't be changed and now I am a software engineer...

So I was talking about my being busy at home.. I thought I would take a break from my job and relax for some time at home... but it turns out that my schedule at home is more hectic than it was back in Pune... The only difference is that unlike my job in the software sector... am loving every minute, every second of this job at home :)

Its gives me so much of pleasure to drive my grandparents to the places they want to visit... sit and talk to them, listen to their old stories about life when they were kids :)

My dadiji is one of the most talented ladies I have ever come across... She is 82 years old , 5ft tall lady with a weight of 27 kgs :) you can imagine how fragile beauty she is to us ;) But till date she is too active and exceptionally good at everything... There ain't anybody else in my family who can cook as good as her... Be it stitching, weaving or even reading... She is amazing at everything... She still gets up at 5 am and helps us with the daily chores, no matter how much we ask her to sit and relax... Back in her childhood, people didn't educate their girl child... She studied till 3rd standard and after that she got married to my dadaji. Dadaji made her study further :) She remebers all the poems and songs she has read till date... Amazing memory she has...

These days am helping her write a book :) I am writing down all her poems and songs and am compiling them :) She loves to sing and fortunately has been blessed with a great voice. It feels great to sit by her side, jotting down the lines of the song she sings, recording her voice....

She has grown very weak in past one year... Seeing her chidren fighting the diseases and hardships of life is now wearing her down... I can't imagine a life without her energy around all of us... I wish everything falls in place and everybody gets well soon as soon as possible...

My father is a one man army... He hardly finds time to breathe normally, forget taking his regular meals on time :) He has been handling so many things at the same time, which is affecting his health. but he doesnt believe in giving up... Am just trying to make things little easier for him by helping him with the construction work of the new house... And by cooking his favourite meals everyday :) Can't do much for him apart from this...

Taking care of the minutest of details, cuz one wrong decision can end up ruining months of hard work... Keeping an eye on the workers, dealing with the carpenters and painters takes up more than half of the energy I have... But its a dream coming true... This is a dream we all have been dreaming from years... Finally its taking shape... its the dream house for us all :)

Strange is it... There is so much of happiness and excitement about shifting to the new house but we have been living in our present house from past 30 plus years... Dadaji and Dadiji saved every single penny they could to build this house... My mom came to this house after her marriage... Me and My brother grew up here... My dad started practicing medicine from this house... I used to study in that small room which now is a store room :)

Not that we won't come to this house anymore, but the thought of leaving it sometimes gives pangs of pain... We are planning to convert this house into papa's consulting....

We will be shifting to the new house in November :) Now, I need your suggestions... In Pali, there is a trend to give names to your bunglows... Few famous names are "Akshay","Rama" "Jalsa" etc.

I am confused, whether we also should have a name for our bunglow or not... What do you guys feel about it... If you feel we should have a name... then please suggest few good names... else just share your views about this...

Am waiting :)

Happy Independence Day !!

2008-08-15T13:14:00.011+05:30

Wish you all a Very Very Happy Independence Day !!

SERENDIPITY is for Fortunate Ones... I am from the rest of the lot :(

2008-08-12T23:11:00.005+05:30

Past few days of my life have kept me very busy and this has resulted in my staying away from my blog for quite a long time... Anyways I had mentioned in my earlier blog that I am on a month's leave... So here I am... relaxing and having a great time with my family at home :)

I left from Pune on Thursday evening... I somehow am very unlucky in case of co passesngers... As always my bad luck strike me yet again this time during my journey to my home....

Till date whenever I have travelled alone, I have had the rudest and the most annoying people sitting around me :( I was to travel in a 3rd AC coach... I was desperately praying for good company and if not that then for people who do not annoy me... But if only all dreams would come alive so easily :D

Bad luck started with a delay in the arrival of the train... While boarding the train, an uncle who was around 50 years of age left no stone unturned in his desire to push me off the train... Somehow I survived him, hoping for a nice company.... I reached my seat, just to realise that "Dear Dhakka Maaro Uncle" was seated just next to me...

The train started and with that started his chit chat... Ohh how I wish it were only a chit chat.. but that was a grave mistake on my part to reply to few of his querries... He was trying to talk to all the people in the compartment as if he knew us from ages... He kept praising himself and his art of bribing the politicians to keep his business going and pollutting the country with so much of pride that I genuinely wanted to stand up and kick him out of the train...

Every vendor who came to our compartment that day would have sweared not to come back to that compartment for a second round under any circumstances... He stopped every vendor and challenged the people sitting in the compartment to buy stuff from him on his quoted price... If no one could do that he would do that and while doing so would use filthy language with the vendor...

As if this wasn't enough, I was blessed with a wonderful couple sitting next to me who were on a hogging spree... They kept eating pakodas, chips and whatever that came in the way and also from the big lot of eatables they were carrying with them... And then started the bombardment... Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh I still can't forget how much pride I could see in their eyes while they farted away to the glory of their hogging capabilities... and spread the "Fragrance to kill" everywhere :((( And hence I named them "The Farting Couple".

Adding cherry to the top of this cake of mishaps... was the set of two politicians who were busy arguing on the top of their voices about why their political party is better than the other's....

I desperately tried to calm my nerves and kept my head burried in a book... But if only life were that easy... :( Mr. Dhakka Maaro laid his eyes on my Femina and Reader's Digest and started commenting on me saying "Aajkal bachcha Hindi ro ek aakhar koni jaane ne angreja ri hadyodi photua waali kitaabaa padhe hai" ( So called today's generation do not know a word of Hindi and prefers reading english magazines with cheap pictures ) That was the limit for me and thats when I whacked him with my command on Hindi and goodness of books like Reader's Digest... which helped me keep him shut for next 5 mins... And those were the best 5 minutes of my journey...

Finally the time to take the dinner came, and their started the Slurp Slurp and Chap Chap sounds.... Aaaaaaahhhhhhhh I wanted to jump out of that moving train but the thought of being able to see my family the next day stopped me somehow...

It was 10 PM when EXCEPT Mr. Dhakka Maaro, everybody else decided to grace the seats with their sleeps... I've never had a sound sleeping habit and I ususally stay awake throughout the night during my journeys... Thats one major reason why I prefer the side lower berth, but this time I was stuck on a middle berth...

I had to save myself from Mr. Dhakka Maaro's undying talking and hence I lied down on my berth and opened my laptop... I had my earphones with me which helped me enjoy 2 movies and few episodes of F.R.I.E.N.D.S in a row throughout the night...

Thanks a ton to my earphone and the collection of movies in my hard disk that kept me alive throughout the night with the roaring sounds of snores from The Farting Couples' Nostrils... If only there were a lion listening to the roaring sounds of those snores, he would have got depressed and committed suicide to see few people creating sounds louder than him...

By God's grace, morning came and everybody woke up... Atleast the snores left us for the journey ahead... though the Farts from the Farting Couple had no intentions of letting us breathe properly for even a second...

Once The Farting Couple got up, they started their daily rituals, which I gathered from the jourey so far, was EATING EATING and EATING...

I was ready for yet another movie or a book after brushing my teeth... So there I was with my lappy again... And perhaps that was one of the biggest mistakes of the day on my part :(

Mr. Dhakka Maaro started cursing the inventions of all the electronic gadgets, specially mobiles and laptops... He kept saying that these things have ruined the bonding of people during journeys... He kept commenting for an hour or so and when he realised that no one was paying attention to him, switched on his mobile phone and started playing weirdest of the songs on highest volume...

All I knew by then, was that I would have to survive those songs if I wanted to see my family that day... I maximized the volume of my laptop and pushed the earphones harder against my ears...

The train perhaps was going through a similar pain... It was pretty tired of taking the burden of Mr. Dhakka Maaro and his songs and continous BAKWAAS... and hence it lost all its energy and instead of moving at the speed of a superfast picked the speed of a bullock cart, stopping at every little station that came in the way and sometimes even in the jungles....

The train finally reached my hometown 3.5 hours after its scheduled time... I were never so happy and crazy to see the board displaying the name of my hometown on the station... It felt as if I was liberated from all the pain, worries and vagaries... I could feel the joy inside me... I had never felt so much in love with my hometown's railway station ever before....

That journey was "Sazaa-e-Kaalaa Paani" for me :( which I survived and I am sure I won't ever forget to thank God for making sure that Mr. Dhakka Maaro doesn't get down at the same station...

I am a FIGHTER for sure... for I survived that journey :)

Next I'll come back with my Pre - Rakhi Celebration story in Udaipur with my bro :)

Right now the scary memories of that journey is hitting me badly and I would better drop it off right here right now and jump onto something that would bring back my courage to travel again with few more weirdos :)

Chao :)

Njoy :)

TAGomania !!

2008-08-06T13:32:00.007+05:30

I have been TAGGED by Urv... Naah Naah... This ain't the Desktop Tagging that was done by Harsh :) This is some other TAG business, which am not sure, I would be able to explain...
But am sure of fulfilling the expectations the TAG business has from me :D

The rules of TAGGING goes like this :)

1) Link the person who tagged you.
2) Mention the rules on your blog.
3) Tell 6 unspectacular quirks of yours.
4) Tag 6 following bloggers by linking them.
5) Leave a comment on each Tagged blogger's blogs, letting them know that they have been Tagged.

So, I got a comment from Urv few days back, stating I had been Tagged by him...

Here goes certain charateristics of mine which definitely make it diffiult for people to tolerate me :D

1) I hate people making "Chap Chap" chapping sound while eating their food... People who do not keep their lips shut while they chew their food are major put offs for me...

2) I wan't pin drop silence while I sleep... Even a paper turned can wake me up... Specially snores and breathing sounds irritate me to an extent that I either go and sleep alone in a room or even kitchen or I stay awake the whole night. Though listening to music sends me off to the most beautiful land of dreams :)

3) Movies that I like ( which are really few ) , I can watch them again and again... sometimes even 3 or 4 times in a day :D

4) I am a SHOPAHOLIC (Clothes)... I ain't brand conscious... I can wear a Rs. 100 T-shirt with equal enthusiasm as to that of the enthusiasm which I would have while wearing a Gucci r Armani or Roberto Cavalli dress...

5) I have got an extremely bad sense of directions... Even though I have been driving different vehicles from past 12 plus years... I still have major difficulty in reaching the destination without getting lost in the way even once... Nice weather and nice roads always lead to my driving 4-5 blocks past the place where I need to get down :D I just forget that the place has left behind and realise it much later :D

6) I am too possessive about my stuff... I still have almost all my dresses, books, toys with me... My mother has to push me really hard for decluttering.... Most of the time, stuff that she throws, I simply get all that stuff back somehow and keep it safe with me... I somehow cannot let go of my possessions... Not just the materialistic possessions, I am too posessive about my friends and family too... Can't imagine a life without them..

Now that 6 of my Unspectacular Quirks are in front of you... I would move on to the next step and hence I TAG

Nishant
Rishabh
Priyanka
Harsh
Amrita
Atul

Though the rule says, that only 6 quirks should be mentioned... I can't keep myself from posting one more annoying habit of mine :D

I hate the sound of the seconds hand of wall clocks and alarm clocks... Everytime I am home, I take out batteries from all the clocks and get good shots from my mom for doing so... But then I can't help it... That "TIK TIK" sound irritates me to such an extent that I can actually throw the clocks in a dustbin if that sound doesn't stop :D so finally my sweetheart mom has replaced all the clocks at home by digital clocks :D

I hate people littering around... I always carry a plastic bag with me and collect stuff in the plastic bag instead of throwing them on the road... I loose my temper everytime I see anyone littering around... I usually fight with my friends and family for this and luckily now people close to me know that I hate throwing stuff on the roads... so they make sure they find a dustbin and dump the litter in that only :)

Anyways, the good news for me is that finally my leave request has been approved and am going home for a month...

Its been 7 years since I have left my home... Since then I have never been home for more than 10 days in a go, and that too happens once in a year.... I have been missing home and my loved ones badly... I wanted a break.... a break from work, a break from the HO HUM of this city... a break from the confusions killing me... Am gonna go home and chill... I want to spend some quality time with my family... My parents know that am coming for a month... but my grandparents do not have any idea about it.... Am waiting to see that smile on their faces when they see me... Am leaving for my hometown tomorrow...

Not that I have not been to my hometown in long time, but still it feels as if my childhood is calling me back, feels as if the fun years would come alive again in this one month... I can't wait to see my uncles aunts their kids... I will be HOME :)

I told mom to get the Broadband plan converted to Unlimited. I told her that in the coming one month she aint supposed to enter the kitchen, that will be my territory... I will take my grandparents to the places they have been wanting to go with me and my brother.... I am going to take care of the construction of my new house... I will go to the site regularly with papa... Tauji just got operated... I would sit by his side and talk to him... Would take care of him with the rest of the family...

Fortunately my younger brother's exams got postponed and he also is coming home :) After years we will all be together :) for a long time...

My friends have been asking me if i have gone mad... cuz I somehow can't stop smiling with tears in my eyes :) I don't cry easily.... but it feels great... I can't control my emotions right now....

I am going to live this one month fully, am gonna make every moment of it unforgettable :) Am gonna click pics of every moment... Its not that I don't get to live with my family.... but its after 7 long years that i would stay with them for 1 month continuously....

I never thought I would say that... but genuinely a thanks come from the depths of my heart for my People Manager ( IBM ) Ajay for understanding my situation and approving my leaves without creating any fuss about it....

Am happy.... am too happy :)

If only I could give words to what I am feeling right now.......

What's On Your Desktop (TAG)

2008-08-05T16:53:00.007+05:30

Am back :)

Hadn't been keeping well from quite some time and then certain things at personal end kept me from coming online :(

I have been Tagged by Harsh

Its about posting the pic which is currently on your desktop :)

I keep changing the desktop of my system everyday,most of them being pics of my family and frenz , so by the time some of you would read this post, I would be having a new desktop pic :D

Anyways, for today my desktop pic is :

That's my Maa and Paa :) My pillars of strength :)

For all those people, who visit my blog :) , you all have been Tagged by me :)

@ Urv :

Am sorry boss... The post for your TAG would come tomorrow for sure :)

B+ , Mera Blood Group Hai Yaar !! ;)

2008-07-25T12:37:00.010+05:30

"We humans often thrive on negative criticism"

Took it from the movie Ratatouille... But today I just want to look around and grab the positivity of everything around me... Probably I am trying to make my Aura positive... I have this ability to talk to everyone I meet... but somehow achieving a comfort level with someone takes enough good time for me....

Recently, I got to know that I was to get released from my project... Reasons X, Y, Z.... whatever.... For some time, I was pretty low about the whole thing, and then suddenly I saw that ray of hope, positivity and happiness coming out of all the darkness....

I mean I weren't enjoying my work at all... It had been 8 months in this project and there was no work to do... The only thing was a time to learn on your own... SELF LEARNING TIME.... Despite trying all the ways, I didn't enjoy my work of SELF LEARNING.... The team members were all supportive but there wasn't anyone of my age ( not that it makes a big difference ) and we were stuck at the client office, compared to which a Fish market seems a better place... Our office kept changing every now and then... I mean so many reasons....

But then I decided to look at it from a different angle...

If it weren't for this much of chaos in the office, I would never have learnt that of all the things in my life, I never want to get into Sales.... It SUCKS... I've never seen people using more filthy language, than the way I experienced it in this office... The morning and evening hours in office were like a real pain... Finally I will be in an office which would look like an office... where maximum people would know how to talk over the phone keeping their voices low... as to keep the conversation between them and the person at the other end only...

If it weren't for the conversations of these sales girls and guys... I would never have learnt so many abusive words... Man !! I am pretty much aware of the dictionary of abusive words now... something I never knew well :) ( Not that am proud of it... but yeah now atleast i knw many bad GAALIS :D , Don't worry I ain't the sort of person to use such words ever in my life :)

Aaaarghhhhhh.... How can I forget this... The office canteen... Ohh !! The food is really SAD and there ain't any variety :( You do not get anything else except a maharasthrian thali which tastes bad... (Maharashtrian food is tasty but the way they cook it.. they ruin the TASTE) And did I mention that the area of this so called canteen is lesser than the area of the lobby of my house :) Lunch hours are the times when people look for chairs as if they are looking for oxygen to stay alive... Ek aur KISSA KURSI KA :)

I am on client site from past 8 months, but unfortunately , despite my company policy stating that I am eligible for a Per Diem of around Rs. 700 per day :), my project didn't offer a single penny ( Not that money matters the most... but man it DOES matter :D ) So kehne ko ONSITE and rehne ko OFFSHORE se badtar :D

I mean just multiply this figure of 700 with 30 and then multiply it with 8... I don't wanna write that figure here... It kills me... It feels as though I have been stabbed with a butcher's knife in my heart :(((((((

As if this was not enough, they keep changing their office pretty frequently... One office was around 18.5 kms from my home, the other is 12 kms and now th eplace where its shifting is just 50 kms from my home :)

I forgot to mention, the client doesn't even provide us with cabs... and if you have to reach office... Make a hole in your own pocket :( NO REIMBURSMENTS :(

And if only you had known the traffic of Pune... you would have sympathized with me by now.... Achche Achcho Ko Traffic Rules Bhulaa De Pune Ka Traffic... Infact in Pune, only TRAFFIC exists... the word RULES has lost its existence LONG BACK :D

I being the only SINGLE one in the team, was often suggested to change my home :) ( I mean how does being single makes shifting from one home to other home easy ??? ) Anyways, that was just a suggestion and I preffered not to accept that... and it kind of was a good decision on my part...

So finally after all the CHAOS, comes a ray of hope for me :)

Am out of something that I didn't enjoy, I will soon be in IBM office and really feel like and IBMer... I won't have to travel so much and waste my HARD EARNED MONEY :D

I will have enough time on my hands and finally I would be able to take up few of the classes I were wishing to take from ages :)

Hopefully I will get to do some work which I will enjoy ( This is one thing am not very sure of... My experience of work in IBM hasn't been very nice, still I have my Hopes ALIVE :) )

I will finally be saved from the CHAOS and abusive language, and would enjoy a peaceful office environment... Am sure of that cuz I have made up my mind , I am not going to take any DOMESTIC project anymore... 3 years of job and all domestic projects... enough deshbhakti.... Time to REBEL :D Mujhe VIDESHI Client Ka Project Chaahiye :D

I might finally land in a project where I would have few people of my age and I would be able to relate myself to them and their lives... Although I won't forget to mention that despite absence of people of my age in my team... the FUN element didn't go anywhere :) I joked with them, spoke to them and I enjoyed that :)

I have learnt so much from them.... If I would list down everything, probably this post would never end... but there are few things which I would really like to mention cuz they matter a lot to me :)

My PL is one of those people, who despite being so senior, is extremely chilled and down to earth, so easy to talk to... I am amazed by his knowledge... His concepts are so clear... ( If only I had studied well in my engineering... my concepts too would have been CRYSTAL CLEAR :D ) His sense of humour ROCKS... I really appreciate that and haven't met anyone till now who can beat him with words... His approach towards life and the truths of life... how in very simple words he would acquaint you with the hard facts of life... Am glad to have worked with him for some time :)

Once when I was badly stuck with something, and had almost lost confidence in myself... my PM pinged me on the company messenger and said "PERSEVERANCE PAYS"... That one liner helped me a lot.... Since that day, despite some of my failures I have this confidence that I would succeed, I just need to have faith in myself and keep working harder...

My team member R, I have never seen him without a smile on his face... Just looking at him makes you feel, things aren't very bad, just keep cool and calm and things would work for you :)

When it comes to my team mate S, she taught me one of the best lessons of my life... YOU SHOULD REMEMBER WHAT YOU PROMISED OTHERS... If you ever ask her to do a thing for you or get you something from home or anything... Be assured... you might forget asking her again but she won't forget bringing you the stuff and helping you with the information she has... This is one lesson which, am sure would help me a lot througout my life :)

Team mate A, the one who rarely speaks, but when he speaks, he would definitely bring a smile on your face... Very helping and technically tooooo strong...(Again a hint for me... NIDHI !! You gotta work hard :D ) He loves JAVA and I hate it :D ( Oh boy !! how can anyone love JAVA so much... Though I havenever learnt a word of it... I don't mind saying that I HATE JAVA :D ) I wish I would learn JAVA someday... ;)

Anyways... again it has become a big post... :) If only I could make it shorter ;) but then I am a gal of MANY WORDS ;) Can't help it :P

Hoping to get a better project and something better than what I will be leaving behind in this project :)

Chao, Tataz, Bye - Bye :)

Njoy :)

P.S. Its FRIDAY.......... This weekend will be spent in Mumbai.... So !! YO MUMBAI !! Here I come !!!!!!!!!!!!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S And A PERFECT WEEKEND In NOT SO PERFECT Pune

2008-07-22T14:00:00.040+05:30

For me, this weekend has been the best weekend in Pune so far... Post coming to Pune, I've never had so much of fun, thrill and excitement over anything, the way I experienced all these things this weekend...

It all started with a vague thought... To meet all the old friends from my old project... and the result came out in form of an email... An email to all the friends in IBM, which said that we should plan a GET TOGETHER... And the rest is HISTORY...

A plan was made and the best part of it was the ACTIVE PARTICIPATION from everyone :) Never had I thought, it would turn out to be so beautiful that none of us would ever forget this trip in our lives :)

I remember my last mail on Friday, in which I had requested everyone to wake up on time on Saturday... I had my doubts about that... I was kind of not very sure... a part of me kept saying people won't turn up on the PICK UP STOPS on time...

But then anything done with so many hopes and wishes seldom fails... We did face some delay in our preplanned program... but then it wasn't big enough a delay to be talked about.... There already is so much to say... that I would prefer putting all my efforts into telling how beautiful, wonderful and adventurous this trip was :)

Saturday, the 19th of July, 2008, 6:00 am in the morning... and the 12 of us... Ankit, Anurag, Jaiwant, Jyoti, Kanwal, Mukesh, Namrata, Prashant, Rajiv, Ruchira, Sreekumar and ofcourse Me :) were in the TRAVELLER bus we had booked for the whole day...

The journey started with a bang, once Ankit boarded the bus and started talking NON STOP :) That was enough to break the ice... and that was the moment when SILENCE left us for the day :D

Neways, the journey had started... We stopped at the petrol pump as the mini bus we were travelling by was hungry for its dose of DIESEL... Once the bus had her share of Diesel, we headed towards Sinhgad...

For all those people who do not know what Sinhgad is...

Sinhagad or Sinhgad means Lion's Fort. It is located near Pune. One of the most famous battles for Sinhgad was fought to recapture the fort by Tanaji, a General of Shivaji in March 1670. It was after this battle that Kondhana fort was renamed to Sinhgad after Tanaji, whose nickname was "THE LION" (Sinha). Having spearheaded the attack and fighting valiantly, Tanaji's life was lost in capturing this fort. On Tanaji's death. Shivaji said "The fort has been captured but the lion has been lost". Parts of once extensive fortification are now in ruins, but visitors still sense how the fort acted as an active military outpost. It is a popular weekend destination for people who are enthusiatic enough to trek to the top of the fort from the base near Sinhgad village. The fort is also a part of National Defence Academty, Khadakwasla. (Courtsey : Wikipedia)

Anyways, now that you know something about Sinhgad, I shall proceed with the day's story...

Once we reached the base, that is Sinhgad village, we all got down from the bus... all set to start the trek... Since its rainy season (without even a single drop of water reaching us in all these days), we didn't forget to carry our jackets with us... We had our sets of water bottles and chocolates to help us with the trek :)

We then started our uphill climb. The weather was just one step behind being perfect... It was cloudy with gentle breeze kissing our cheeks... The only thing we missed was a drizzle... Anyways, we started walking through a dense canopy of trees... lush green... The view was refreshing... We had just started our trek and it was hardly 5 minutes after that when all the cameras came out of the pockets of the bags and the "Click Click" sound started reaching every ear in range :)

I opened a box of Munch and we all started munching the Munch :D As we climbed to a higher point, we stopped for a breather and looked around... What a view.... The mountains were all green... We could see the Khadakwasla lake at a distance... The sun kept playing with the clouds... A moment it appeared and the next moment it hid itself behind the clouds... The hide and seek game between the sun and the clouds made the trek all the more beautiful... It was a mesmerizing sight from the height where we stood, to see the world below us... half lit with sun's light and half bathed with the shadow of clouds... The fort was slightly visible with the clouds hovering over it...

We enjoyed some "Masala Taak" and "Nimbu Paani" and resumed our climb... After about every 10 minutes, we would stop to take some pictures... What is the point of carrying so many cameras when you don't stop to capture the memories... 12 of us... few cameras and innumerable poses ;)

The pics would definitely speak for us ;)

We again started climbing up... It seemed that the view got better the higher we got... It was for the first time in my life that I were on a trekking expedition... I had absolutely no idea about the enjoyment one could have while trekking... I don't think I would have enjoyed anything else so much... except the water sports ofcourse... I am an Aquarian and "Water and Water Sports" definitely are my first love :)

There were rocky climbs all along the way... The difficulty level of the trek kept increasing the higher we got... The unfavouring, yet favouring point was the absence of rains, which spared us from slipping on the rocks...

I am not scared of heights... Infact I enjoy heights... but I don't know what it was... as we neared the top, I felt thirsty and suddenly a wave of fear hit me... I was scared... scared like anything... I just couldn't move ahead... Thanks to my lovely friends, who stopped there itself and stayed there with me till I got calm and composed again... It was momentary but it was scary... I still do not have it in me to explain what it was...

Anyways... now that I had regained my composure... we started our climb again... Again the same fun with the click click gadget :D

Looking up, we could see the fort draped by a large soft cloth made of clouds... It seemed mystical... There were many groups like ours enjoying their weekend the way we were :)

As we came close to the fort, the path got narrow and slippery... Such that even if one slips, he or she would cascade the effect downstream...

And finally, we reached the destination :) We were at SINHGAD... We reached the TOP :) It was cloudy up there... I can't call it foggy because the clouds never came down enough to talk to us :)

People were enjoying Bhutta, Masala Taak, Lime Juice, Boiled Groundnut, Tamarind, Kairi and what not...

I raised my face to look at the huge entrance gate... Just before the gate, was a map of the fort, displaying all the major points on the fort...

This was the point where we started enjoying the Kairi... While we gals were busy hogging the Kairies, Ankit didn't miss the chance to capture the shot...

The whole Kairi thing was enough to increase our apetite and thats when we walked a little farther to enjoy the very famous KANDA BHAJJI , MATKA DAHI , JHUNKA BHAKAR and PITHALA...

Hmm.... our experience of Kanda Bhajji and Dahi was fine, but Jhunka Bhakar and Pithala failed to win our hearts....

Anyways once we had our food, we had gained back our lost energy and there we were.... back to the good old days of being kids... Jumping here and there, hanging from the trees and giving poses for the pictures :)

That was a real funny moment when I asked Ankit to hang from a branch, and the idea looked so tempting to everyone... that everyone ended up getting themselves clicked there, hanging like a monkey on that branch :D... Eventually everyone did manage to hang on the branch for a while :) and get clicked perfectly... EXCEPT ME :( I couldn't balance myself even after a dozen attempts :(

Anyways, there were many more chances to bring out the kid side of me , hence I moved further....

We roamed around for almost 2 hours , breathing in the fresh air, savouring the flavour of wet sand, feeling the caressing touch of the wind against our cheeks and drinking in the nature's bounty :)

It was breathtakingly beautiful... I enjoyed the view... and would definitely like to enjoy it again when its raining.... So much of greenery... It will look heavenly with water droplets falling on me from everywhere... The droplets of water on leaves would look like pearls on a green carpet... I am waiting for the rains to come... and am sure no one would like to miss the beauty of Sinhgad during the rains... So am sure I won't have to look around for people to accompany me ;) We all have experienced it enough to be sure that we would come to it again :)

It was around 2 pm by then , hence we decided to head down. We took a decision to go down via jeeps... The downhill ride by the jeep was dangerous due to the bad roads but the continuous jokes and laughters from friends made it fun :)

Finally we reached down by 2:45 pm and went to a lodge to freshen up... I don't think I would ever forget that bathroom of Room No.3... Never in my life had I seen anything so filthy.... Anyways I won't elaborate that , it was already disgusting enough... Mentioned that just because that too was one of the various experiences of the day...

Anyways we then left for Panshet, which is around 18 kms from Sinhgad, by 3:30 pm...

Panshet is one of the most popular places near Pune for picnic lovers. Panshet dam was built in late 50's. It became famous in 1961 when the dam collapsed and the entire water grabbed Pune city. Now a days, Panshet is popular because of Water sports here that includes Speed Boats and Water Scooters etc.. One can have a nice road to Panshet surrounded by dark green woods.

Anyways, with the thought of enjoying the water sports offered at Panshet, we reached Panshet Boating Club. We stayed there for 2 hours and enjoyed rides on water scooter and speed boats....

It was a thrilling experience... Our speed boat zooming past other speed boats with a speed that was enough to scare the hell out of us... But then when do Dare Devils accept defeat :D We fought the speed and the water and finally made friends with them ;)

Got wet, shouted, sang, shrieked, jumped and enjoyed every moment on the rides... I won't write much about them, as the expressions on the faces would speak more than my words here :)

All tired after the water sports, we headed towards the canteen at Panshet Boating Club and attacked the stock of Poha and Chahaa (tea).

I don't think I had enjoyed poha so much ever in my life the way I enjoyed it there :) Am sure it wasn't just the taste, but the amazing company and wonderful experiences of the day :)

Once we served our stomachs with the Kanda Bhajji, Batata Bhajji, Poha, Chahaa and Coffee.. we headed towards Khadakwasla dam...

Everyone was pretty tired by then.. but then exceptions are always there... and there comes in picture devilish brains like Ankit's, who do not miss out on the golden opportunity to click the sleepyheads :)

For you... here comes the chain of sleepyheads :)

Ohh !! I forgot to tell you about Khadakwasla...

If one asks about the 'Chowpati' in Pune, the Puneits will go for Khadakwasla. Khadakwasla, Panshet and Varasgaon are the three major dams near Pune which provides water to entire Pune city. Khadakwasla dam was constructed in pre-independence period. The dam is big one and many people enjoy their Sunday and holiday evenings here. The amazing view of Sinhagad and Peacock Bay is again a major attraction of Khadakwasla. Village Khadakwasla is just 12 kms away from Pune to the way to Sinhagad. It has a military importance as National Defense Academy (NDA) here is very famous in Indian Military History. Truly Khadakwasla, Panshet and Varasgaon not only are water storages for Pune but also developing as new picnic spots near Pune.

Anyways... all tired, in need of some Glucon D, we got down at Khadakwasla, and enjoyed the Camel Rides :) What more can you expect, when you've had a wonderful day and still the FUN element ain't going anywhere :)

The energy chose to stay back and there we were... playing Dumb Charads :) So 12 people started clowning, to make the onlookers laugh and enjoy themselves :) Me, Ankit, Namrata, Rajiv and Jaiwant formed a team and the second team comprised of Kanwal, Anurag, Jyoti, Sreekumar and Mukesh. Ruchira and Prashant chose to take some rest :)

Need I say, our team beat the other one... but I would definitely say that they gave us a good competition :)

Finally after the game of Dumb Charads, we boarded the bus again anad headed towards the main city... No one was shouting now.. no one was cheering :) but there was that wave of happiness passing from one to another :) There were those smiles reaching every face :) and the sound of soothing music :)

We reached Pune by 8:30 and chose COURTYARD as a dinner destination :)

Had a hearty meal ( partially hearty ;) the mushroom soup was an absolute DISASTER :D )

My and Mukesh' cell kept playing songs that touched our souls :)

After a day's FUN and ADVENTURE :), we bid byes to each other, promising such trips again in near future...

We would soon be going for yet another trip :) and am sure we would enjoy that more than this one :)

Till then , stay tuned and enjoy the memories of this trip :)

A Beautiful Day, A Rocking Trip, A Wonderful Group of Friends, Smiles on All The Faces :) Thats the recipe for a PERFECT WEEKEND :)

So when are you trying the recipe ??

Update me ;)

Weekend Story !!

2008-07-15T10:28:00.003+05:30

It was one of those weekends, when I were in Pune only.. I usually do not leave any opportunity to go to Mumbai :)

Somehow I have never enjoyed being in Pune... but this was a nice weekend :) I and my roomie "Ray Shoe" (Reshu) had decided to go for this movie "Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na" on Saturday morning. The show timing was 10:55 a.m. to 1:35 p.m. and so there we were, all set to go for the movie..

What is the fun in reaching the destination on time ;) So it was 10 am and me and Ray had still not left for the movie hall which was around 13 kms from our home. We left for the movie at around 10:15 am on my Activa. Anyways, as if getting late for the movie was not enough, God thought of making things a little more difficult for us... And there we were, right outside the our colony, with a flat tyre :D

Since we were already running late, we parked Activa there only and took a rickshaw to the movie hall. We reached the hall exactly on 10:55 am... Thinking that all's well that ends well, we took our seats and fixed our eyes on the screen... Ohh !! By the way , did I tell you that I have never seen so much of crowd in a movie hall, the way I saw on Saturday, that too when the movie was 2 weeks old by then...

Anyways, the movie was an absolute PAISA WASOOL, nothing extraordinary, no preaching, no moral story, no social issue... a simple movie with all the masalas in limit...

Hmm... so once out of the movie hall, me and Ray went back home to get my Activa. The person supposed to fix the tyre gave me one of the broadest of smiles and told me "Didi ! Light nahin hai... Kab aayegi pata nahin... Aayegi ya nahin... Pata nahin... Abhi hawa... bharegi nahin... Aap please petrol pump chale jao... " So there I was, thinking what to do... Petrol pump wasn't very far but it was not easy to drag Activa till petrol pump... I thought of driving it till petrol pump... So I hopped on Activa and left for the petrol pump... Just when I reached the petrol pump, I heard a bursting sound and by the time I would have realized what had happened, the back tyre of Activa almost came out, throwing me off the road... A truck was coming at full speed and I genuinely do not know if it were my luck that saved me or my last minute thought when I simply jumped of my Activa... For next 5 minutes I was completely LOST... I then gathered myself and my Activa... parked it at the petrol pump and called the garagewala...

That fellow checked the tyre and told me that somebody had inserted three big nails in the tyre and the whole tyre tube was torn by then... He finally replaced the old tyre tube by a new one and there went MY HARD EARNED MONEY :((

What I didn't understand was what the hell do people get by doing such things, inserting 3 nails in a tyre ???? What sort of fun activity is this ?? Am laughing right now writing this post... but a moment's delay could have either taken my life or left me half dead...

AlI I could do was to ask the security guys of my society to take special care, that no stranger is playing around with vehicles...

Anyways, I was quite composed by the time me and Ray again left for our weekend ritual "SHOPPING". Ray had to buy a saree for her mother and I wanted to buy an external harddisk...

We roamed around in the market for around 3 hours, going through the confusing streets of Pune... I genuinely feel like saluting the people who know about all the Peths and Chawks of Pune... Hard luck or bad luck... Whatever it was, but by the end of the day Ray didn't like any saree for her mom and I found a better deal for the external hard disk in Mumbai, so will be buying it when I ll go to Mumbai next weekend :)

Two of my closest friends from Mumbai Taaoooo and Telly ( Arjun and Sahil ) had come to Pune for one of their friend's birthday... So once I was back from the market, I met them and chatted with them for around 2 hours... We recalled our old days and how we miss being together in the same city... Me, Taaooo and Telly have known each other from past 2.5 years, but it seems as if we know each other from childhood... How withought speaking much, we understand each other, how we just know what to say to make the other one feel nice... I truly wish this friendship grows strong and strong with time :)

Sunday was spent with Taaoo and Telly , and it was AMAZING... We didn't go anywhere, we didn't plan anything... just sat with each other for hours and talked :) Nothing more beautiful, nothing more satisfactory than to talk to old friends :) It was a beautiful Sunday :)

Taaoo and Telly left for Mumbai in the evening and I came back home, rested for a while and finished few weekly chores at home :) Finally I went to the bed thinking of The Adventurous Saturday, The Beautiful Sunday and The Bad Monday that was to come the next morning :(

Ohhh !! How I hate these Monday Mornings :(

Anyways... its tuesday when I am posting this post... and certain shocking things have happened on Monday... am not sure if I should be happy about what has happened or I should be sad... Just trying to analyse the situation and find out what I need to do next :)

Will be back soon :) Till then...

ENJOY :)

Ohh !! I forgot to add this... Telly had gone to a restaurant to get dinner packed for his friends when I and Taaoo sat on a bench and talked about so many things... I just was feeling little low and that when Taaoo simply looked at me with so much of affection and said "Chet !! Tu bahut strong hai aur rahegi ! " Yeah Yeah !! They call me CHET and there is yet again a long story behind that ;) which I will blabber out some other time :)

He didn't say anything else... and he said it all... I promise to be strong :) for I have the best of the people around me... with me... and they are my FRIENDS :)

FRIENDS FORVER :)

Thanks Taaoo for having faith in me :) Thanks Telly for being there :) Love you all a lot :)

Oki Oki... Enough sentigiri :) Now I have to gather myself again to fight the Shock I got yesterday... Need to figure out my next move :)

Till I get some substancial solution to my SHOCK...

ENJOY :)

T.G.I.F.

2008-07-11T14:01:00.003+05:30

T.G.I.F.

Yippieeeee

Finally its Friday :) How eagerly I wait for this day every week :D

Two days of fun and masti now :) and then the same MONDAY BLUES :(

Anyways... Today has been a good day so far... I am kind of enjoying things I've been doing all day long... I was stuck with some issue on the server which has been put on hold now... The person who was supposed to make few changes at the server end is neither online nor taking my calls... Guess what !!!! I just realised today that Duniyaa sach mein bahut chhoti hai... This person I am talking about is no one else but one of my ex collegues :D One who was a big time pain in the first company too :D Ohh !! How I am looking forward to this now ;) Its been quite some time since I have had some major fun in the office :D It's gonna be a big time pain making this fellow work :D but then whats work without some challenges haan ;)

Anyways, now that I couldn't do much on the server, I was kinda free.. and hence I decided to take an initiative, something I had been planning to do from quite some time...

When I had joined IBM ( my present company) I was made to join Panasonic project... though the journey was short ( Ohh common... seriously I wasn't kicked out :P, the project just got scrapped :D so we were made to walk out gracefully ;) ) the journey was nice :) I met some really nice people :) Specially our Fun Manager AL definitely knew how to make the team enjoy every moment in the project :) (Am sure the authorities couldn't see us all happy and hence SCRAPPED the project :D )

Anyways... So I was telling how I took an initiative today, I dropped a mail to all those people who were with me in my previous project "Panasonic". I wanted to check for their availability over the next weekend... Luckily the response was overwhelming :)

Out of 18 of us... 16 ( including me ;) ) gave a nod for a Get Together ( without any problem )... Coooooooooool.... 2 of them who won't be able to make it.... Hmm one is recently married and is enjoying the new phase and the other is flying to UK for an onsite opportunity :)

So , for now we are definitely meeting each other after a long time. Married people are allowed to bring in their spouses and kids, committed people are allowed to bring in their would be wifeys and hubbies :D And jo akele hai wo akele aao ;)

We have got 3 options to choose from :

1) Meet up for just Lunch or Dinner.

2) An overnight trek (Trekking in the morning... Sight Seeing during the day... Camp fire in the night...)

3) A picnic or a trek from morning to evening... A single day program.

Personally my vote goes to the 2nd option and I have no qualms with the 3rd one too... But I genuinely do not want the 1st one :( ( So far 1st option has got not even a single vote so am happy :D )

Anyways... I am really looking forward to this MASTI EVENT ;) ( Yeah thats the name I have given to it ;) ) I hope the plan doesn't change now :)

Coming back to where I started from... T.G.I.F. Thank God it's Friday :D

Me and my roomie R will be going for Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Naa in the morning... followed by our weekend ritual :D SHOPPING :D

So am looking forward to a nice weekend with my roomie R :) It will after a long time that i would be in Pune for a weekend :)

Meanwhile... While I was trying to drop mails, call and convince everyone for the Get Together... I realised I loved doing it... I was loving every moment of managing the event :)

Hmm... May be I will find a way :) May be I will realise what I want... May be I won't... All I want is to be happy :) feel happy from inside :)

Am feeling good today... Its been a nice day :)

Between... I will be trying a new dish tomorrow :) Hope it turns out good :)

Chao :)

Happy Weekend !! :)

Confessions of a CONFUSIONOHOLIC

2008-07-09T14:30:00.002+05:30

There are times when you feel your mind is stuffed with billions of thoughts... Each thought experiencing a head on collision with the other, one thought crushing the other... and in turn the other thought hitting another thought... In short its utter CHAOS... Something you want to run away from... This is the state of my mind right now... I don't know what I want, where I want to go, who I want to be with... I am CONFUSED... I am LOST... Though all these are my own thoughts... I feel like a stranger in my own head... Gosh !! Am I going insane ? ( As if there is a SCOPE left )

I quit my first job after banging my head in a project for a year and a half... I broke the so called bond and joined this new company... full of hopes... I was so sure that being a bigger name, it will give me the kind of work I am looking for, the opportunity to learn what I want to... I hoped for transparency among team members, i wished for a healthy work environment... I didn't miss out on a single opportunity to curse my first job... And after finishing this one year in my new job... I feel am back to square one... back to the place I started from... One year with this company and I miss my first job... It was horrible yet it was nice... I learnt so much unknowingly... Though the work load was killing, but I met best of the people in that company, in that project... I found best of the friends there... I learnt that if required I can work under lots of pressure... I survived... and then one fine day, out of that frustration of not being able to find time for myself and my loved ones... I ran away... A new job... a new city... new people... new team... I was full of hopes and with a positive approach I landed in this new city...

Was it my bad luck or my bad decision, I don't know... but this phase of my life has been really bad so far... Today after a year in this city, I don't hate any city the way I hate this one... I don't repent anything the way I repent joining this new job... this new company... I have never come across people so self centered, so rude and so irresponsible... I have never come across people who love poking their noses in other's matters so much... I don't say the city is bad or the people are... but my experiences have been bad... very bad... I genuinely want to run away... but a part of me is scared... Does running away from problems serve as a solution or I need to fight them... But then the other part says... Fight the cause you want to fight... when this job and city means nothing to you, what are you wasting your life for... What are you trying to fight ??

I don't enjoy my work, I don't enjoy staying here, I don't enjoy being a part of this company... The aspirations I had, have been crushed... The work I was looking for is nowhere in picture... The kind of work I am doing or am made to do is something I don;t find interesting at all... I don't see myself learning anything out of it...

I know everyone says one should keep his or her personal and professional life separate from each other... but I fail miserably when I try to do so... If I don't feel good from within, I can't work well in the office... I know this sounds unprofessional... but despite trying hard, I am finding it extremely difficult to strike a balance between my personal and professional life...

At times I feel I am good for nothing, I am useless... I ain't doing any good to myself by sticking to a job I don't enjoy... At times I feel I am a complete misfit for IT world... but a part of me loves this IT world... Again a CONFUSION... Do I love IT world or I hate IT world...

I feel like going back to my first job, going back to Mumbai, the place I have loved all my life... The only thing am sure about in life is that I love everything about Mumbai... I love LIFE in MUMBAI... Naah naah... It ain't the night life or the party life or the happening places in Mumbai... but I see Mumbai as a LIFE that doesn't stop... No matter what, LIFE moves on there... I love the SPIRIT of Mumbai and Mumbaikars...

I have been working from past 2.5 years... This is my 2nd job... Leaving this job would mark a bad impression on my resume but not leaving it would mark a bad impression on myself... At times I feel like going for higher education, but the second moment I pull myself back... I am scared... Will I be able to study after a gap of 3 years... ?? What if I start preparing for the post graduation and then fail everywhere... I am scared of failing...

I genuinely want to go back to Mumbai... But is this the correct time ? One hop from the job, and I have realized it does no good to you... What should I do ? Should I leave everything on luck or I should keep exploring my options... Should I stick to this job unwillingly or should I just listen to my heart and go ahead with what my gut feeling says...

Am confused... more confused than this CONFUSING post of mine... I don't know why I wrote all this... but I just didn't look back... I kept writing... May be the flow of these CONFUSED thoughts would lead to some clearance of CONFUSION from my head...

Amen...

There are only two sweet words beginning from alphabet 'M' - MITHAI aur MAA :)

2008-07-04T17:08:00.002+05:30

Mom.. Maa.. Maate.. Maatushri.. Mumu.. Mumui.. Momsy.. Momsica.. Momma.. Mommy.. Ammi.. Ammijaan.. and what not..

These are few of the ways how I address my mother..

It was after our conversation over the phone today in the morning, not to forget the beautiful surprise she gave me in form of a touching comment on my blog :).. that I decided to blog about her.. about the relationship I share with her..

I am 24 and she is 45 :) (I know I know I shouldn't have told you that ;) but then CHALTA HAI YAAR :D ) There is a so called GENERATION GAP between me and maa... still she is one person whom I've told everything in my life.. From my first crush, to how we helped a friend's boyfriend enter the girl's hostel :D to how I ran away from my hostel at 12 in the night to wish a friend on his birthday :)

I don't remember if I've ever fought or argued with anyone in my life, the way I do that with maa.. but then I don't even remember any other person in my life with whom I talk for ATLEAST 2 hours a day (over a phone :D since am in Pune and she is back there in Rajasthan :) ) Every single day, we fight like anything, we argue, she criticizes me and I criticize her.. I tell her that she does not want to change with time and she tells me that I have turned into a freedom loving freak.. :)

She thinks she has given me enough freedom and I think she wants a complete control over my life.. Everytime she tells me about ways of saving money (THE HARD EARNED MONEY), I freak out.. I have been living away from my house from past 7 years.. 4 years of my life in a hostle and 3 years of job life.. I know how to manage my life and the so called thing called money..

She tells me how I need to learn about adjustments.. because they are the most important part of one's life (Specially when you are a girl born in a JAIN family). I hate it when she tells me how I need to manage my home (Whenever I get married) and my job.. I hate it when she tells me that being a girl, I will have to make more adjustments than the guy who'll come in my life..

I hate it when she questions why I have more guy friends than girls.. or why the number of people I feel comfortable around has more of guys and less of girls.. I hate it when she tells me what to wear for any occasion.. I hate it when she tells me I need to shed off those extra 2 kgs of weight..

So many things, over which we fight.. usually the healthy discussions end up in a non healthy way.. Still.. I can't imagine a life without all these discussions.. I can't imagine my day going fine without talking to her for an hour in the morning.. (Yeah I get up early in the morning just to talk to her for an hour)

I am known as Papa's Gal.. Papa Ki Pilli.. Papa Ki Poonchh.. Papa Ki Betudi among our knowns.. I have always said that I love my dad more than anyone else in this world.. what I have never said is that I love my mom too.. more than anyone else in this world.. What I've never said is that I respect her for the person she is.. for the sacrifices she has made for me and my family..

My mother used to work before I was born.. She is a pathologist and used to run a lab successfully.. When I was born, she left her well established lab and took care of me.. She lived my childhood with me.. She showed me the colours of life.. Many of you might find her decision wrong, to leave a job.. She could easily have got back to work after I turned one year old.. but she chose to stay home.. she chose to raise me by giving all her time to me.. She played games with me.. she taught me how to walk, how to talk.. she taught me how to read, how to write.. She CREATED me :)

I never appreciated her for her sacrifice (She doesn't think she made any sacrifice by quitting her job) as I always told her that she should have got back to work.. Often when we fight.. I tell her that she can't see life through my eyes as she has spent most of her life being a housewife.. She has never stayed in a hostel.. or stayed in a new city independently for a job..

But today I truly and soulfully want to tell her how much I appreciate everything that she has done for me.. how much I respect her for all the moments she has given me.. for the way she has brought me up.. for being my best friend.. for trying her best to change herself according to my wishes.. I want to tell her that no one can do what she has done for me.. I don't have it in me to make a sacrifice like that for anyone but she did it for me and never ever made me realize that.. I want to tell her that am proud of her.. that I feel nobody loves me more than she does..

I want to tell her that I feel on the top of the world to have her as my mother.. I want to tell her that there can't be anyone else in this world who knows me more than her.. I love her for all the times she has had complete faith in me and has let me follow my heart.. for everytime she told me that I am the most beautiful girl she has ever seen.. for telling me that no matter what.. all she wants is to see me smiling all my life..

I want to tell her, I admire her elegance, her choice, her way of dealing with life.. I want to tell her that she is brave.. because she let me and my brother (parts of her body, her life) choose our own paths.. for never stopping us from dreaming and working to make those dreams true.. for never stopping me from exploring life..

I want to tell her that I love it when she stays awake till late hours if I am out for a party or working in the office till late hours.. I love the fact that she loves me.. I love the fact that she treats me like a baby, like a teenager, like a woman and like an individual :)

I love it when she cooks things I love to eat.. I love it when she lets me shop endlessly though my wardrobe is full of things.. I love it when she forgives me everytime I hurt her..

I love her for her UNDYING FAITH in me when the rest of the world lost faith in me.. I love her for her unconditional love for me.. I love her for every bit she does.. because everything she does is all for me , my bro, my father, her in laws, her family..

I love her for introducing me to the hardships of life (but always being there to save me from them ) and letting me learn my own lessons.. I love her for never letting me feel that I am not as good as others.. I love her for supporting me and my ideas.. I love her for her acceptance.. for the way she becomes a part of my ideas.. my dreams.. and make them her ideas and her dreams..

I love her for every prayer she says.. for its always for others and never for herself.. I love her for bearing all the pain and giving all the pleasures to me.. I love her for her comforting words.. I love her for the ways she cherish raising me up.. for every little thing she remembers of my growing up.. for every little card she has safely kept with her that I used to make and give her when I was a child.. for my stupid letters she has safely kept with her.. for the way she poudly displays all my certificates, my trophies, my sketches, my paintings, my handmade soft toys and what not.. I love her for letting me learn everything I wanted to learn..

I love her for holding me close to her everytime I needed her.. for understanding me when nobody else did.. for letting me fight my confusions and come out of them.. for bearing all my frustration and being patient with me.. I love her for not letting me go weak when I lost one of the most important people in my life.. for letting me know that I have to be strong.. for telling me to fight back and tell life that I won't loose..

I know sometimes I have been a mean kid.. I have hurt her.. I have been harsh sometimes.. but I really love her and I know she knows how much I love her :) I know she is my biggest STRENGTH but I know she is my biggest WEAKNESS too..

There are so many things for which I love her.. yet there are no reasons for my love for her.. I love her for no reasons.. I just know she is my maa and I am her child.. and thats how I want it.. thats how I love it.. :)

I love you maa.. I love you a lot.. and I really do miss staying away from you.. but I love the fact that despite staying away you stay close to me all the time :)

I love you.. and am sorry for the times I have hurt you and will hurt you unknowingly in future.. I just want to tell you that YOU ARE MY STAR.. to me SUCCESS is YOU, to me HAPPINESS is YOU, to me BEAUTY is YOU, to me GOD is YOU :)

I Love You MAA :)

For you are MY MAA and MY LIFE :)

The Chef's Special

2008-07-02T10:29:00.007+05:30

After I recreated my blog yesterday, I was thinking about all those things I wanted to blog about.. But somehow after reaching home, instead of writing something for my blog.. I ended up watching the movie Ratatouille once again..

My friends often make fun of me because I just go crazy about few movies and whenever I get time, I watch them again and again.. I watch them in bits and pieces when I do not have enough time on my hands.. One such movie is Ratatouille..

Probably it was my love for this movie that made me choose this Ratatouille template for my blog. It isn’t just the animation and the fun sequences in the movie that I like and enjoy watching, there is much more to it than just those fun moments..

The movie is about a rat named "Remy" who thinks different.. He is fascinated by the way humans don't just survive.. they discover.. they create.. He is fascinated by the fact that humans combine two or more different flavours to create an entirely different flavour.. He is fascinated by Chef Auguste Gusteau's culinary skills.. He learns to cook and experiment with food by watching Chef Gusteau's Cookery Show..

Under certain circumstances.. "Remy" is separated from his family.. And how against all the odds, he fights life and survives, how he trusts a human named "Linguini" (despite several warnings from his folks to stay away from humans as they are a dangerous), how he doesn't give up, break the rules and follow his heart.. how he lands up in a new city and finds a new life waiting for him.. how he embraces the new life, accepts the changes in life and walks gracefully with them.. is what appeals to me..

I can't stop myself from relating LIFE with every little thing in the movie..

I see myself in Remy's character.. I see every one of us in Remy's character.. The only difference is that not every one of us breaks the rules and follows their heart like “Remy" did..

Like him.. all of us are inquisitive.. curious about different people, different cultures, different lifestyles and what not.. Every one of us has that hunger in themselves to explore the world, to explore life.. But we are scared.. too scared to come out of our cozy and comfortable shells and face the new challenges of life..

I am working as a software engineer with a reputed software firm.. Mine is quite a secured job.. Every time I watch this movie.. I want to break free from the monotonous routine of my life.. I love to cook.. I dream to own a restaurant few years down the line.. Leaving a secured job to venture out in a field not so secured.. It scares me sometimes.. But when Chef Auguste Gusteau says in the movie “Good Food Is Like Music You Can Taste, Colour You Can Smell.. There Is Excellence All Around You.. You Need Only Be Aware To Stop And Savor It..” I forget all my fears.. These lines sound like music to me :) These lines give me the courage to follow my heart.. to follow my dream.. and I put a more firm foot on this decision of mine.. I am waiting for the day when this dream of mine comes true.. And to a big extent.. this movie would help me achieve my dream.. :) I won't give up.. Not till I put the best of my efforts into making this dream a reality.. :)

"Remy" trusts "Linguini".. He takes a chance.. I feel "Trust builds Trust".. I feel that unless we trust people around us.. we won't be trusted by anyone.. In the course of our lives, we meet a lot many people.. I met a lot of people in these 24 years.. And I have learnt to trust people.. Trust makes you a part of them and makes them a part of you.. You need enough courage to trust a stranger.. But unless you won't trust them.. You'll never get to know them.. You'll never get to know how good or bad or neutral they are to you.. I know many of you would not agree with me on this one.. But I prefer trusting people.. Though it hurts sometimes.. But this ability to trust has given me some of the most beautiful relationships of my life.. This ability to trust has given me friends I can count on.. friends who leave no stone unturned just to bring one smile on my face :) and these relationships are what I cherish the most in my life.. I owe this all to the TRUST they showed in me and the TRUST I showed in them.. :)

"Remy" is nothing but a rat.. a tiny creature.. but he saves the grace of Gusteau's restaurant with his culinary skills.. Never judge anybody by their looks.. shapes or sizes.. Every person is special in their own ways.. Respect and accept people for what they are.. "We thrive on negative criticism.. but in the grand scheme of things, the average piece of junk is probably more meaningful than our criticism designating itself.." This line from the movie says it all.. We must accept and appreciate people for who they are inspite of criticizing them for what they don't have and what they can't be :)

Yet again a line from the movie.. "The world is often unkind to new talent, new creations.. The new needs friends.." so true it is.. People often fail to welcome the new changes.. often fail to give the new a chance to prove themselves.. (Who else can understand it better than us ;) Don't you think our managers need to welcome the new talents, new creations.. like US ;) Specially my manager needs to welcome my CREATIVE ideas :D Kindly convey the message ;) ) Welcome the new and make them feel at home :) make them feel that their ideas are welcomed :) You never know ;) a new fresh idea can do wonders :)

The list of lines from this movie that I love is endless.. If I list them all here on this blog.. It will become more of a preaching session :) and I genuinely want all of you who haven't watched it till now, to enjoy every bit of this movie.. the way I did and I still do :)

Still I won't miss out on a chance to shower three more beautiful lines from this movie, on you all.. ;)

"If you focus on what you've left behind.. you would never be able to see what lies ahead.."

"Not everyone can become a great artist, but a great artist can come from anywhere.. "

"The only thing predictable about life is its unpredictability.."

I hope now you know why I love this movie so much and how I related it to my life :) and may be you would be able to relate it to your life too once you watch it :)

So you also be UNPREDICTABLE and welcome Life's UNPREDICTABILITY :)

For I am loving it ;) Being unpredictable for the Unpredictable Life.. ;)

Last , but not the least ;) Special thanks to Moi for staying awake with me till 2:30 a.m. (Come on I can't stay awake alone :D ) and to Guddu Di for suggesting a perfect title for my post :) Love you loads guys :) Muaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh

EFIL !! LIFE.. is like this..

2008-07-01T17:13:00.004+05:30

There are TWO ways to live your life - One is as though nothing is a MIRACLE, The other is as though everything is a MIRACLE- Albert Einstein

Its been a long time.. I have been keeping myself away from the world of blogging... I always found it to be a perfect platform to vent out my bottled emotions...

To me.. my blog was my second best friend :) First ofcourse was the one who read my posts :) With the first one gone.. I somehow lost faith in the second one too..

I know.. I know.. Its getting too complicated.. The First and The Second game :)

So lets just forget the whole First and Second sequence and celebrate my reconciliation with the world of blogging :)

Here I am... Welcoming myself to my own space.. to my own world.. to my own blog :)

No more "Why Me" to LIFE... Back with a bang... Its "Try Me" "Explore Me" "Be Me" time for me and my LIFE..

Smile And Dream.. For Its Life.. And its Beautiful..

P.S. - Special thanks to Moi , Nish and Guppi for bringing me back to my world.. my blog :) A big thanks to Mohit B for suggesting the url name for my blog "rajeekhushi" and for telling me that real LIFE is nothing else but EFIL ;) Love you all a lot :) Thanks for being there for me :)